Always

10: fruitella

(A/n: contains bits of an eating disorder and also the information about the foods and the list is all from internet so please don't rely on it . It's all for the plot )

"Hi, I'm Doctor Arthur."

"Hello."

"So I viewed your case and it's still early, so there are faster chances of recovery. But if you keep this up and not eat, it won't be long before you might have to get hospitalized." I can feel all the color drain from my face. Death is something I'm not scared of, but Memaw is. She'll be devastated. No, no, no, it can't happen. What about the projects? I promised myself I will not let my health get in the way of my work. I'm a fucking disappointment.

"So as I was saying, you should start eating, even a bite would be good for now. Don't be demotivated if you sometimes can't eat big proportions since this is a step-by-step process." I nod. "Try eating balanced meals. Here in the list, I've written some foods that help, so you should try eating them."

FOODS TO RECOVER FROM AN EATING DISORDER

A balanced meal plan for a person recovering from an eating disorder includes foods from each group:

- Proteins, like chicken, tofu, and eggs.

- Grains, such as rice, pasta, and oats.

- Fats, including avocado, nuts, and olive oil.

- Fruits, like blueberries, apples, and mango.

- Vegetables, including leafy greens, peppers, and carrots.

- Dairy, such as yogurt, milk, and cottage cheese.

Add whole nuts and seeds or nut butter to your diet daily to reap the nutritional benefits.

- Almonds.

- Walnuts.

- Pecans.

- Peanuts.

- Brazil nuts.

- Hemp seeds.

- Chia seeds.

- Pumpkin seeds.

- Flax seeds.

- Whole grain pasta.

- Oats.

- Popcorn.

Fanfuckingtastic.

"As for your insomnia, it might be because of your eating habits. Please stop taking your sleeping medicines for a while and try finding things that feel comfortable to you. It could be candles, pillows, or in some cases even a person. Your body is stuck in fight or flight mode, and being around your comfort person or someone who feels safe may help your sleep it could be a specific scent or even a specific place ." How do I tell him that I don't feel safe around anyone, not even myself. "Okay." "And don't be afraid of asking for help, even if it's from a friend." I nod and leave the hospital.

Call incoming.

"You smellfungus bitch." I roll my eyes at her warm greetings.

"Hello to you too, Maddie. What did I do now?" she scoffs.

"I came to your penthouse to surprise you, but little did I know you moved from there. You bitch, first you don't call and then move without telling me." Ouch. My ears.

"Yeah, I knew you would annoy me as soon as your tour ended, so I moved before you came back." In reply to this, I hear a wonderful chain of cuss words. I love annoying her. I bite my lip.

"Alright, shut up. I'll send you my current address, meet me there. I'll take you where I moved. Now shut up, you're hurting my ear."

"Good, die," she says and cuts off the call. I realize that I can't send her the address of a hospital, so I send the address of the local grocery store since I can easily tell her that I was grocery shopping.

Maddie is like twenty minutes away, so I thought I might as well shop since I'm already at the grocery store. Pasta. I should try having pasta for dinner today. It used to be my comfort food. I try to find all the ingredients, but something else catches my eye: Frutella. Memaw used to give these to me every time I felt sad. When I shifted here, she gave me a box of these, and afterwards, I tried finding them here, but they were just not available anywhere. It somehow became my comfort snack. I smile at the memory of her. "Ivy, hi." I immediately get startled and shiver, causing Frutella to fall from my hands and back into the box. I look around to find Lucas smiling cheekily at me.

"Hello."

"So you're coming today, right in the evening?" I nod, and I get a text from Maddie telling me she's here. "Um, I have to go," I say and leave for billing. I look behind at Frutella and leave. Maybe some other time.

I exit the grocery store and immediately notice Maddie's car. I mean, it's not hard, considering it's a hot pink porche . I get in my car and ask her to follow me.

"Can I move in with you?" Maddie asks as she looks around the house. "No, you'll make me loose the last two percent of my will to live," I say amused. She looks at me as if I said the most annoying thing to ever exist. We just catch up for a while before she has to  leaves and I have to leave as I'm supposed to be at Lucas's house. Is it too late to bail out now? What if they didn't want me there? I force these thoughts out of my mind.

"Also, you're coming to the ball, right?" she asks as we wait for a servant to bring her car out of the parking. "I mean yeah, I'll go for a minute or two, it's a two month later anyways . I find those things annoying anyways," she nods. "Of course you do, y-" .her voice gets interrupted by the once hat her somehow taken over my life  . i look around to find Lucas at the enteracnce of his door on a call with someone . he notices us after he cuts the call . 

" hi again " i reach out becuase it was just getting awkward .

"hi Ivy"

 "Um, this is Maddie, my friend, and Maddie, this is Lucas ," they both say their hellos. "Um, I'm gonna leave now, it's getting late," she says, and Lucas looks at me. "Um, you're coming, right? For the movies?" he asks, pointing at his house, and I nod. "K. Then I'll see you there," he says and leaves. 

 "So, you got the villa, the view, and hot as fuck neighbor. Not fair, Ivy, Not fair " she says, whining, and I force myself to not roll my eyes. She gets into the car, and from the window, she says, "And don't think I'm ignoring what Lucas asked you, I want deets later," she says winking. And now i whine, instead  "Maddie, no, it's not like that."

"Oh yeah, sure, I know, only friends," she says, making kissing noises and actions with her hands.

"And I might be going, but you ain't getting away from me, bitch. I'm coming back to hang out with you. Also, don't kill yourself," I roll my eyes. This is her way of saying take care, and I had a good time. Weird, I know. "Oh, how I wish I could get away from you, poor me," I say with a dramatic pout, and she gives me a toothy smile. "Text me once you reach so I know you didn't kill yourself with your terrible driving." "K, bye, bitch," she yells and leaves.

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