I Don't Need You

Chapter 20: Alone

Theo's P.O.V

I cursed myself for saying those word a loud. I was not ready to forgive her. it hurt even more knowing that I love her with all my heart and she used me like I was somebody else. I was her best friend beside her on the darkest and brightest days. She knew I would've done anything for her in a heart beat.

We were scrambling off the floor that grown szomehow grown cold. I was rushing to put on my clothes as she was putting on her dress faster.

"This was a mistake/" She finally said and I felt a ball of fire rise inside of me.

"Oh, i am sorry that I didn't give you any information to run and tell zachry at the moment." I said sarcastically.

"Theo," Her eyes glared back at me. "I was not bribed to sleep with you. You know me beettter than that." She said

"Do I?" I retorted back at her making her frown and anxious.

I never used to believe in faith. However, when Amelia asked me to be friends with her again I thought it was possible. The way she played me like I was a violin. She tugged on all the strings to get her way. 

"I didn't think we would've gotten close, again. We weren't talking to each other so I thought it was easy to..." Her words trailed off searching for them.

"You thought it was easy to fool me. I thought you were better than that. Miss Perfect Amelia couldn't harm a fly but  wanted to fuck with me." I said. My voice was filled with rage that I have been hiding for two weeks.

"Screw you Theodore. You think you are better than everyone else in this fucking world." She said running her hands through her hair. She walked closer to me and we were chest to chest." Some people have more fucking problems than betrayal. " She jabbed her fingers in my chest.

"Amelia I thought you were everything to me but it turned out I was wrong. I trusted you, again. I was stupid enough to even fall in love with you." I said and both of our eyes were filled with shock.

"You don't understand, Amelia." I said gritting every word out. Why couldn't she understand I am heartbroken? I want to hate her but I can't because I need her.

"Yes, I do. I am sorry but I had to work for Zachary and it almost killed me at the end. I was rushing to tell you everything." Amelia said shouting in my face but I didn't care anymore. The side of her eyes welled away and I wanted to kiss them away until it stopped. "This summer was hell without you. You knew my mom had a drinking problem and you compared me to her. That was what fucking hurt me. I was struggling Theodore to stay sane. With everything." She said her breathing was heavy of tears flowing out. I cursed myself in my head. I knew I took it too far saying a harsh comment like that.

"I needed money because I begged my mom to check herself in to rehab. She tried to overdose herself with pills and a bottle of rum. I felt like I didn't have anyone in my life who wanted to love me. My dad was off with a new family and my mom was in the hospital. I was stuck with trying to pay for everything. That is why I had those overdue bills in my apartment for tuition, medical bills and house bills" Amelia said with her voice breaking. My heart ached for hers. 

I didn't know that she was in so much pain. The worse part was that she thought she was alone. My arms wrapped around her and closed the space i between us. Her body finally shook as she broke down crying. I felt warm tears against my shirt and didn't care how soaked it got. 

"I'm sorry." I said after she gasped for air. I watched her puffy red eyes as she wiped her nose with the back of her arms.

"Can we go home?" She said and I nodded my head right away. I slipped my suit jacket around her. 

I put my arm around her waist protectively and walked passed the crazy crowd. They were blowing horns and shouting, 'Happy New Years.' Gold and Black balloons fall from the sky with confetti shooting out of cannons. 

I opened my car door and helped her inside my car. I closed the door and walked around to the driver's seat. I drove quickly to my apartment and in a comfortable silence. 

Her calmness filled the apartment while I turned on the kettle. She opened the balcony doors and watched the fireworks from outside. I watched her take a deep breath and let it out. I couldn't help but walk outside onto the balcony and grabbed her waist. I didn't think before I crashed my lips onto hers and she let out a breathless moan.

"I never want you to feel alone, Lia." I kissed her lips hard and rough. "I will always be with you no matter what." I said breaking the kiss leaning down to the side of her jaw. "My heart is yours to keep." I said and she moaned clutching my arm for support when I moved to her neck.

"Theodore." She said breathlessly and closed her eyes leaning into me.

"I know you don't need me." I said and went back to taste her lips against mine. She parted her lips allowing my tongue to slip into her mouth. 

The night was the only one we had left. Only I knew.