JJ's Secret Lover

JJ's Secret Lover - Part 12

*TRIGGER WARNING* (Domestic Violence)

You push away from her arms and go back to scrubbing. Something in you can't stop. "Y/N, please, stop, it's ok" She says quietly, trying again. She doesn't know what to do, her only instinct is to call Emily. 

"Em, I need your help. It's Y/N" You can hear Emily scream through the phone, "I'm 2 minutes away, I'll be right there." JJ still doesn't know what to do, she sits down waiting for Emily. You are still scrubbing.

Emily barges through the door, "JJ? What's going on?" She looks over to you and sees you cleaning. "JJ, grab a blanket, their headphones and their pills" JJ runs to get the things Emily asked for and comes back. 

"Put the blanket on the blood, cover it, all of it. Give me their headphones and a pill." Emily puts the headphones on, and watches JJ cover the blood.

Emily grabs you and holds you tightly. Your breathing calms, and Emily gives you the pill. You take it quickly and hold onto Emily's arms. You start crying and screaming Emily's arms. All JJ can do is watch, she's freaking out. She's never seen you this bad.

"JJ, start talking. About anything." JJ starts talking about her favourite roller coaster at her home town's fair, she would go every year just to ride it. "Y/N, look at me. You are ok. You're at JJ's house. You're safe." Emily looks into your eyes and you both make eye contact.

Emily still has her arms wrapped around you, your grip loosens and she doesn't let go. Emily looks over at JJ, "JJ, they're ok. Just take a breather, go outside for some air." 

JJ gets up and runs out the door, she screams and you can hear her start to cry. Emily hasn't let go of you, but you've calmed down. She picks you up and takes you to JJ's room. She tucks you in and makes sure your headphones are still on. She heads downstairs to talk to JJ.

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JJ's Perspective: I followed Emily's advice and went outside for a breather. I was so worried and scared I just screamed, it's all I could do. I felt awful. I had never seen Y/N like that.

Emily comes down the stairs and joins me outside. We sit on the patio steps. "JJ, they're ok." She looked at me like she was used to it, "Emily. What was that? I've never seen them like that" She held onto my hand and asked me, "Has Y/N told you anything about their childhood? Or their parents?" I had no reply, I just simply shook my head. 

"Their parents were alcoholics, their step-dad was agressive and physical when he drank. Y/N never liked their step-dad. He would beat their mother when he drank and would not remember it till the next morning when he saw the bruises. One night, their step-father was drinking and their mother was out with friends. Their mother came home to him drinking, he got mad how late she was home. He gathered his fist and hit her. Y/N ran to the closet and hid in it. All they could hear was him beating their mother. Their step-father killed their mother. And Y/N's step-father made them clean up the blood."

I gasp and begin to tear. I can't believe what I've heard. Emily was crying. I cover my mouth to make sure Y/N can't hear me cry. "I don't know what to say, Emily, what do I do?" She looked at me, "Be there for them, tomorrow morning don't say anything to them. Go at their pace. They will probably distract themselves with work, I will check in on them at work tomorrow." I looked at Emily and asked one last question before she left, "Washington, they weren't drinking the alcohol were they?" Emily shakes her head, "They haven't had a drink since they came back from deployment, so 2 years. They've gotten good at hiding their trauma."

Emily gets up and leaves so I walk back inside and head upstairs. I hop into bed and Y/N turns over and pushes themselves against me. They still have their headphones on, so I just let it happen and we both fell asleep arms in arms.

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Back to Y/N's Perspective: It's the next morning, you are so drained from the night before. You keep your headphones on and head downstairs to see JJ making breakfast. The sheet is still on the floor. 

You sit down at the table, JJ brings you a plate with bacon and eggs. She sits down next to you with her breakfast and you both sit there in silence. As she's about to finish her breakfast, you take your headphones off. She looks at you, then looks back at her plate. She gets up to go put her plate in the kitchen, you follow her with yours.

She grabs your plate from you and puts it into the dishwasher, she says quietly "We'll leave in 30 minutes for work if you want to shower".

You say nothing and head upstairs to take a shower and get changed. About 30 minutes later you meet her downstairs, she says, "I'll meet you in the car just have to grab something." You get into her car, you can't drive after last night's flashback. She comes walking down the stairs and jumps into the car, she says, "Look at me for a second." She places your headphones on your head and mouths the words, "You forgot them."

She puts the keys in the ignition and you both head off to work.