JJ's Secret Lover

JJ's (Not So) Secret Lover - Part 21

You walk towards your car, jump into the drivers seat and head to your apartment. Now what do you do? 

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"Y/N, please, open the door." JJ has come to your door everyday for a week. Asking you to open the door to talk. You never answer the door or say anything.

You sink into your bed and catch up on tv. Your apartment is a mess and you have no energy for ANYTHING. You stopped taking your meds and have enjoyed a mostly quiet holiday away from work.

Your phone has 58 missed calls, 274 unread texts and an email from the BAU HR and Hotch. 

You even contemplated going to the enlistment office. That's how low you got. 

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JJ had come to your door every day for a week, but today she hasn't. It's been quiet. You decide to check your phone. Skimming through emails and texts from everyone on the team. Then you come across one from Emily, describing the case they are working on this week. And below her email was an email from Hotch. 

"Agent Y/N, I am sorry for my actions. Although you are right, they came from higher ups on that day and in now way were impacted by my decision to not use that specific vest. Please reconsider, we are flying to New York this week and hope you would come back to the office."

You're two days too late. So, you skimmed through your texts and realise that JJ sent a text yesterday and said, "We'll be back Monday, the CIA took our case and our jet was called to another FBI team. We're enjoying New York for now, hopefully I'll see you Monday?" 

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You sit on the idea for a while. Hotch has apologised and you are miserable without the one thing distracting you from life. 

You have dinner that night, alone and depressed in a lonely apartment. You have made your decision.

You are going to go back to the BAU, you are not much without it and JJ is there. You miss her. You grab your pills and swallow them down as fast as you can. Pack your bag for tomorrow and set an alarm for 5 am. 

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*BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP* You alarm is going off, it's still dark outside but you want to beat the team to the office. You have a shower, get changed and grab your bag. You head to your hot rod and head into the office.

You park on B3, as you usually do and head into the elevator. The lights in the office are all off, meaning no one is in yet. 

You reach BAU level and head to your desk. You place your bag down and have a little power nap in your chair waiting for the team. One by one they come in, each giving you a big hug and an apology. 

And finally, Hotch walks in. "Agent Y/N Y/L/N. Welcome back. From all of us at the BAU, well except for JJ, we are sorry." And behind him is JJ, she runs past him and jumps at you for a hug. 

While you are still embracing you whisper to her, "I read all of your messages, and I'm sorry. I'm here and I'm not leaving, unless you do obviously." She quietly laughs and lets go.

"No cases yet, but with our luck it won't be long." Hotch says while heading up to his office.

JJ walks you to her office and closes the door. "Y/N, I was worried sick. No answer for over a week. Are you ok?" You smile and reply, "I'm fine J, I mean I will be when these pills kick in properly." She frowns and asks, "You stopped taking them?" 

You feel ashamed but know that she will love you no matter what, "I just needed quiet for a while, but I'm back on them." You open her door and yell out, "Yes boss!" The office laughs as you march down the stairs. 

"Em, my office please." You jokingly say from the desk in front of her. "Hey Y/N, long time no see." She smiles and hugs you. "We all know I couldn't stay away, glad I missed New York though. Rough time?" She laughs and nods. 

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"Team! Briefing room. Now." Hotch says while walking with competitive pace to the briefing room. You all head up and sit next to JJ. The room feels different, maybe it's the tension.