JJ's Secret Lover

JJ's Secret Lover - Part 16

She grabs onto your arm as you walk out the door, you look up at Emily and turn slowly to JJ. "Let go. Now." She is shocked by the anger in your eyes, "We need to talk Y/N, otherwise you never will." 

"JJ, you should let go." Emily quietly says as she sees a tear roll down your face. You point at her hand and say one last time, "J, let go." She notices your hand shaking and let's go.

"Just to make sure I'm not gunned down. Hotch. Gun, now." He hands it to you, as technically it's your choice. Emily says to you, "Y/N, are you sure about that?" and you simply reply, "It's what she wants." You put your gun it its holster and walk off. You just walk and walk until you reach the motel.

You check out and ask the front desk lady to order you a cab. "Sure, shouldn't take long." You get into the cab with your bags and say to the driver, "Airport please, and quick." As he starts driving and you reach the driveway, you see the team's SUV. You see JJ in the back crying while Emily is wiping her tears with a tissue.

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Your cabbie drops you off at the airport and you run up to the airline ticket counter. "First flight to Quantico, Washington please." She smiles and hands you a ticket, "30 minutes, Gate 36". You run to the security line, flash your badge, pass through quickly and just make it in time for your flight.

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As you land, your cell signal reconnects and everyone on the team is sending you messages. Penelope, Derek, Reid, Emily and JJ have all sent you at least 20 messages. Hotch hasn't.

You text Hotch a quick message, "I'm sick, I won't be in for a few days." He replies but you don't look at the message. You assume he said 'take all the time you need' like usual. 

You head to a fancy hotel, the Hilton. Pay for a room for a few nights and make sure the hotel room has a safe. You put your gun in the safe and press the random combination and timed unlock option. You set it to your checkout time on your last day in the room. 

You open the mini fridge and taste a few of their little liquor bottles. Put on a sappy movie and eat popcorn till your lips are cracked from the salt.

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It's been 3 days. You haven't looked or even bothered to charge your phone and just as your waking up the safe door pops open.

It's time to go. By now all your plants are dead and you left your apartment a mess. It's time to stress clean!

You pack your bags and head downstairs to check out. An expensive but well deserved holiday. You call a cab and head back to your apartment. 

You have a small regret about the past 3 days, but too late now. "Honey I'm home" I scream into my messy and lonely apartment. You eat a quick grilled cheese and some expired juice. It's a Tuesday so you go to sleep early as you have work tomorrow. 

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*BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP*, your alarm is blaring. You don't always wake up to it so you have to put it on it's loudest option.

You slowly get dressed and head downstairs to the garage. You pull the dust cover off your car, you haven't driven since Washington. It would be nice to drive your car, it's an old Ford Mustang. Bright red with 2 white racing strips and a pair of fuzzy dice hanging from the mirror.

You blast some Girl In Red and head into the office. You park the car on the lowest level of the garage and put your headphones on before heading into the elevator.

You make it to the BAU office level and head in. You walk through the door and feel the stares instantly. You sit down and usually you'd put your gun on the desk but you place it on your lap like you did in Washington.

Emily walks over and pulls one ear of your headphones off. "Nice holiday? JJ's been crying 3 days straight." You grab the headphones from her hand and go back to listening to music. 

You can hear a faint yell from Hotch from his office, "Feeling better Y/N? Open cases on your desk." You have to reply, "All good now, thanks Hotch. On it" You get straight back to work. 

You file all your reports and statements. Your bored and know Penelope is always busy, so you get up and walk around to her office. You take off your headphones but before you walk in you notice JJ sitting on Garcia's desk crying into a pile of tissues. You grab onto the door handle and quietly say before closing it, "Oh for fuck sake. JJ, stop crying. You're making everyone around here sad. Even me. And that's hard." You shut the door and walk away, to avoid her you walk up into Hotch's office before she catches you. 

"Hey boss, finished those reports and statements. Any new cases coming up?" He looks up and out the window to notice you've locked the door to avoid JJ.

"Your next case is to fix whatever happened with you and JJ. She keeps crying. Then you get a case." As he's finishing and you are about to open the door, you hear a couple loud popping sounds. You open his door quickly and notice...