The Awakening {Gojo & Sukuna x Reader.}

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She was laying down just like the first time I found her. It appears like she had no emotion either through her eyes or face. I'm willing to ask her about whatever happened here, but not in this state.

"I killed my best friend and my beloved one. I perfectly know what you've gone through." What's the best thing to say or do in this kind of situation? While trying to find the answer, my body moved to sit beside her

"Will time erase this feeling?" Her flat voice claimed the truth. You should cry, y/n. Otherwise, you'll turn hollow like Sukuna and I.

"No, it'll be worse from now on. You're going to have nightmares, regret, frustration, guilt, hatred toward yourself and this unfair world. At least until you fall in love again, I guess."

"I thought so."

"You were his perfect vessel yet he left because he loved you." She said she was aware. What should I say to make you empty your resentments?

"He was the one who kissed you." Only then my beloved girl sobbed, then she launched a cry which will perhaps free her impulse. It's not the right time, but I feel like a therapist.

I pulled her to me and she cried and cried on my chest as I absorbed all her tears and grief with an open heart. I patted her head and made her comfortably sit on my lap. She fisted my clothes the whole time, not letting go even for a second. Usually, I like positivity but for the time being, it feels good to relieve a crying person. We hugged each other as I leaned on Sana's grave and I wished that I had the other arm to wrap her tighter. I let her cry as much as she wanted, until she calmed down.

Her body is still weak so she fell asleep. I put her on my bed and before going to take a shower, her tiny hand caught my empty sleeve, my heart raced, maybe soon enough the dream will come true.

"Thanks for being by my side." My heart shattered while I smiled softly. My hopes are way too high. Obviously, she won't ask the man who caused her grief to hold her the rest of the night, or the rest of his life. She has to take her time just like I did.

"Anytime! Night." The jerk inside every man has been extinguished that night but it will lit up by tomorrow with a single glance at her. When I got out of the bathroom, I heard sobbing coming from the room. She repeated one word with a hoarse voice over and over and over again. 

"Sukuna..." I slid against the door until sitting down. To think I make you that desperate, to think I've hurt you plenty of times, to think how many times I've made you cry... it makes me so sad. So I also cried that night, I also let out tears just like you did.

In the morning we both faced each other at the breakfast table with puffy eyes, but neither of us ate. However I kinda forced her to eat to gain weight back. And ever since, her body gradually came back to its normal shape. I wished that she could stay longer but obviously she preferred going out of Japan.

"What about handling my aboard missions?" She'll probably slap me or something.

"Ok."

"Hm?"

"I said yes." I wanted things to come back like usual between us, like fighting over nothing... but she agreed? Obviously she'll ask for a double amount of money.

"Don't bother about the money, Aki is sending me enough."

"Maybe you need to see Shoko again? You're acting weird." That made her smile once in a while. The fact that she opened up with me lately gave me hope that one day, when I can apologize properly and confess my feelings again, we'll fully reconcile.

"I'm counting on you to tell Masamichi that he can pour me with unpaid tasks like usual."

"Ah~ you give me the hardest part!" She approached after storing her suitcase. Don't say goodbye because if you do, I'll say it my way. She put her hand over my chest and I love when she touches my chest like that.