i was never someone to speak a lot. my parents and relatives always used to tell me how quiet i was as a child and how they feared that i was mute for many years. however, i never really found that part of me to be so bad. i like to keep to myself and i prefer listening to others rather than communicating. it was easier that way and i felt most comfortable. it's not strange that people thought i was weird for that though.
despite that, i still made a couple friends in middle school that included me in different hangouts and such. it was a nice period of my life, in school that is. sure, i might've been the shy one of the friend group, but i didn't mind that title and my friends cared about me equally.
friendship and loneliness wasn't a worry for me up until high school where my parents unfortunately didn't enroll me in the same school as my friends.
i was heartbroken to hear that they'd move so far and that we wouldn't be able to keep such close contact anymore and i deep down knew that i wouldn't be able to make such good friends like this again, who basically adopted me into their friend group.
i do like to talk of course, but i'm often too shy to get the words to exit my mouth, especially around strangers. i'm afraid that they'll judge or make fun of me and even when i am able to start a conversation, i can't keep it going. my brain just freezes and i suddenly grow insecure all over again. i can only ever talk around people i'm close and comfortable with.
after a while of trying to make friends but failing, i simply accepted that i was going to be a loner in my high school years.
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trigger warning:
social anxiety
abuse
swearing
typical teenage boy behavior
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