art and football | nagi s. X reader

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the bus he took didn't have a nearby spot to his apartment, so i now found out that he takes pretty long walks back home. it's nothing too long or even tiring, but it's still long enough that i'm surprised he even bothers with it.

"yeah, sometimes i take the train, but meh... i always miss it, and it takes so long till another train arrives. i can't be bothered most days... and i've basically memorized the entire walk, so i can just game and walk."

i sweat dropped, watching as he pulled his phone out and began gaming on it, also while ignoring the thousand notifications that rang in his phone. i could see him swiping at his phone to get them off his screen, before giving up and turning do not disturb on from annoyance. he seemed to have noticed my staring, and tilted his head to me.

"it's the guys. they're being annoying about the date and shit." he sighed, before turning back to his game. i giggled softly, and nodded my head. "i'm not surprised. my phone is already on silent mode."

after that, the walk was quiet, the only thing that sounded was the wind blowing against the leaves, the occasional civilian passing by us, and nagi's shooting game which he was caught up on his phone. i was pretty surprised to see that he wasn't knocking into anything- i guess he did memorize the path, but i mean, he does go this way everyday...

the air was beginning to get chilly, and i inwardly cursed at myself for not wearing something warm. in my defense, i thought that i'd have gone home by now, not stayed over at nagi's apartment... i shivered, and wrapped my arms around my body in hopes of preserving some body warmth till we'd arrive.

this motion seemed to have caught nagi's attention, and he shoved his phone in his pocket before cocking his head to me.

"you cold?"

i nodded.

"we're almost there. hold on for a bit more." he hummed, before taking my hand in his and pulling me closer to him. he squeezed my hand, and i was momentarily stunned by how warm he was.

"you're so warm...." i mumbled, unable to stop the giddy smile from breaking out in my face.

"you're cold." he responded.

being with him is like a dream.

oftentimes, i find myself unable to grasp the fact that out of every girl in the world, he chose me.

i'm no one special- i'm not smart, i'm not pretty like other girls and there's nothing appealing about my body because it's always hidden under baggy clothes, and under those baggy clothes lay my bruises. my personality is not charming either, i constantly freeze up and begin overthinking everything, or apologize a hundred times for stupid things. i'm awkward, and i have social anxiety. not the cute kind, either. i think i just look stupid because of it.

i can't do a lot of fun teenage stuff because of my strict family, that also don't even want me to have friends they don't approve of, boys especially. so i'm constantly dragging him down and
disappointing him.

the only thing i'm good for is drawing.

but still, he chose to like me out of everyone in the world.

someone as attractive as nagi- if he tried enough, he could date multiple girls all at once and i doubt they'd even mind, as long as he kept them close.

i was overcome with the urge to cry. i'm not used to having positive attention on me, especially not like this. now that i have it however, i constantly question myself and my worth.

i feel like... i don't really deserve it. there's nothing appealing about me... he'd definitely be happier with someone else, wouldn't he?