art and football | nagi s. X reader

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Time passed really quickly with so much anticipation bubbling up in my chest for the upcoming date with nagi. with every passing second, my anxiety worsened and i began feeling insecure.

I've never been on a date before, how do i know what to do or how to dress?

i wouldn't want to disappoint nagi of all people on such a special day.

It's our first time ever going on a date together for god's sake!

what if i do something stupid, so much that he starts disliking me and going back on his word, ultimately leading to our breakup?!

I couldn't let that happen! which  is why i called my female friends the night before, and the day after, interrogating them for help about the date, advice on what to wear and what to expect.

One reassuring thought however is that nagi has probably also never been on a date before, since he did mention that girls don't like him that much. (and that i'm his first ever girlfriend, if even female friend).

finally, we settled on some clothes (which took me hours to pick), i decided on wearing (clothing of your choice). It's cute, a perfect reflection of my personality, according to my middle school friends at least. they did their best to help me despite only being on face-time. still, i appreciated the help so much. I definitely wouldn't have survived without their assistance.

now, it was time to try and convince my parents to let me go.

they're very strict with who i go out with, where i go, and how i get there. they mostly only approve of my middle school friends (and i'm only really friends with them, in my parents eyes at least. they don't know about the boys), but even so, they constantly insist to walk me there or to the train station.

i find it really embarrassing, especially giving the fact that i'm not a toddler anymore! my parents overprotectiveness is a huge problem, and it's driven people away from me before. it's incredibly isolating, and embarrassing to have to constantly explain to my few friends how my parents must meet their parents before we hang out. thankfully, that hasn't been that much of an issue recently, since i've only met up with my middle school friends twice so far since we've entered high school, and my parents only walked me once, the other time they reluctantly allowed me to leave on my own.

but if they find out the truth, i'm going out on  a date today with a boy, they'll kill me.

i know that they'll beat me the hardest so far if they find out that i have a boyfriend too.

honestly, just them finding out that i'm friends with boys might get me a beating... i've never had male friends before because of them. they always fed me information about how scary and untrustworthy guys are growing up, which is why i have a fear of guys in the first place. (it never helped my fear that a lot of guys did fit into those stereotypes by acting violent or brash, even if they were only joking while doing it).

finding out i'm going on a date with my boyfriend would be the worst case scenario though. i know they'd go so far as to move me to a different far away school, or harass nagi or his family to stay away from me.

that's why they can't know anything about this. i can never let that happen.

i stuffed my little bag with some money and my phone, before staring at myself in the mirror and exhaling deeply.

i'll just act casual about it- i'll say that i'm meeting up with my middle school friends, then i'll run out the door before they can interrogate me and say that they'll walk me there (if they walk me there, they'll catch me on my lie when they don't see any middle school friends, but nagi instead). good plan, right?! i know it is!