I turn the bathroom faucet on as my face contorts in sobs. The bathroom, this horrid place, echoes in every corner, the sounds of my own cries mocking me.
As if things couldn't get worse.
I roughly push my head under the faucet, letting the water wet my sticky hair. My eyes close as I quietly sob, tears streaming down my burning face.
I wanted to never come back here.
Those stupid boys! They always fuck everything up
Can I not be happy for one second!
What is the point of this horrible life!
I wanted to rip my hair out rather than clean it as I clutch the vanity tightly. My breathing was uncontrollable as my chest rapid rose and fell. To say I was breaking down over a milk spill was embarassing, but I was at my snapping point.
And as soon as I try to calm myself down, I catch a glimpse of my reflection. My shirt covered in milk, my hair dripping, my red eyes, and disgusting face that was filled with tears and snot.
Just looking at myself made me hate everything more. It made me cry more.
Suddenly, fast footsteps are heard from outside the bathroom as my head whips to the door. Once it opens, a phanting figure walks in, resting his hands on his knees like he ran a marathon.
With my cheeks still wet with new tears, I look away just as quick. I want to go home. Anything to not be in this situation.
Come on heavens. Do me a solid for once!
"Minnie are you okay?" Hyunjin runs up to me as soon as he catches his breath, stopping right beside me and lifting his hand to brush my bangs.
I move away quickly, using all my strength to not completely break down again, "What the fuck are you doing here?" My jaw locks and my teeth grit, my voice with laced in venom.
"I-I..." Hyunjin hesitates for a moment, not expecting the rough tone from me, "I came to help." He finally says before quickly getting a bundle of paper towels, wetting them, and patting face gently.
For a moment, my body shut down. Melting into the care from Hyunjin. The older seemed to be so different like this, he didn't comment on my ugly appearance as the normal Hwang Hyunjin would, instead he just focused on cleaning me up.
The warmth was unique. Addicting almost.
"I'm going to fucking kill Chan." Was all he said after a few moments. Not a single tone of doubt in his voice. His eyes were sharp and his jaw still clenched. "He's always getting on my nerves."
And I'm suddenly brought back to reality. Hyunjin was mere inches from my face, cleaning me up after just being a part of the problem.
Chan and Hyunjin were friends for fucks sake.
I'm not letting this happen again.
The thought of Hyunjin watching what went down today as a bystander, him being in that friend group for years makes the rage boil back up inside of me.
And now he's acting like this?
I roughly swat Hyunjins hand out of my face and take a step back. The sound of our skin meeting was loud enough to echo through the bathroom stalls. The olders hand falls to his side as his eyes widen, he looked confused.
"why the hell do you keep acting like this!?" I blurt out at Hyunjin. My face was probably even more red now as fresh tears brimmed my eyes. I couldn't seem to calm down at all.
"What... acting like what?"
"LIKE YOU FUCKING CARE ABOUT ME!" I yell at the older, tears fully streaming down my cheeks again. There was no going back.
I just want this day to be over.
Hyunjin looks taken aback, his eyes still wide as his shoulders drop, looking defeated. The sudden outburst was not what he expected when he tried to help his childhood family friend.
I was the silent one. The bottled up one.
"OUR WHOLE FUCKING LIVES!" I continue to rage, pointing my finger roughly at his chest, "WEVE HATED EACHOTHER! AND NOW YOURE THE GOOD GUY?" I let out a maniacal laugh, this whole situation was ridiculous.
"Minnie it's not like that-" Hyunjin sighs in a softer more emotional voice, his strong facade falling apart as well. The two of us breaking the walls we've built up.
"You're just like them!" I cry out, another sob filling our ears. "Stop acting like you care...."
Hyunjin tries to take a step forward, his hand reached out and his mouth slightly agape. I don't let him reach me though, I push his hand away with a scrunched up face.
"Are you gonna be all nice and then go back to being one of them in public? Huh!?" I practically spit in his face, emotions I had bottled up were now fully exposed. "Is this going to go one forever!?"
"Minnie I'm sorry I didn't mean it-"
"Fuck. You." I turn away from the older, falling to my knees on the bathroom floor and leaning against the wall, sobs falling out of me as my shoulders violently shook.
Hyunjin stands there, looking down at me. His handsome face was looked shifted, as if he was about to cry as well. His eyes looked oddly broken.
But I don't care anymore.
After a few moments, my cries die down and Hyunjins stays silent. Eventually, the older takes off his backpack and pulls out a fresh t shirt.
I look up at the sound, my eyes swollen, as Hyunjin turns to me and hands it over. No other words were exchange as we made eye contact for a brief second when I grabbed the shirt from his hands.
And just like that, the boy left.
Walking out the bathroom with only words left to hang in the air. As if nothing happened.
Instead new footsteps enter the bathroom, a pair of two. I don't look up, instead I bury my face further into my knees, leaning my back up against the cold familiar bathroom tile.
"Seungmin-ah!" Felix voice sounds, the twins lean down on either side of me. Their voice seem distorted and hazy.
My eyes suddenly felt the urge to roll back into my head.
"It's gonna be okay seungmin." Jisungs voice chimes in, patting my back as Felix cleans off the leftover milk from my head.
The world's sounds fade in and out as my eyes stung from the salty tears that had finally stopped shedding. Instead, I felt a emotionless. I had used all my energy up.
I just clutch the t shirt in my hand, staring at it. My heart felt like somebody was squeezing it but I don't shift my gaze, feeling the haziness while replaying the conversation in my head over and over again.
A/n
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This shit is actually sad
Whose side are yall on? Team Hyunjin or team seungmin?
Happy Memorial Day too guys! I'm gon eat good tn 😌😌
Hehe hope you enjoyed!
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