She's back ~ L. Hamilton

15. | Music Video

"I'm not supposed to like you, you know" I spoke.

It was two o'clock in the fucking morning. After Lewis had abruptly shown up at my door, and me, still consumed by anger, took him up on his offer to make a song. We went to a back door bar and sat in a booth for an hour as I wrote the song, then we went to a recording studio, spent another three hours there and boom, this song was born.

Now it was two in the morning, and we are wondering the streets of New York with an old recording camera shooting shots, that we are going to put together to make the music video.

I guess what they say is wrong though. New York was empty, so much so for the city that never sleeps

"That's not what you should be saying to the person who just gave up their whole evening to help you out"

"Yeah but if anyone ever found out you did, I'd be disowned by my entire family"

"So you keep mentioning" Lewis said through a sigh

"I hate him"

"Phil?" Lewis asked

"Who else, I'm currently picturing all the ways I can murder him and get away with it"

"How many do you have so far?"

"A hundred and fifty two"

"Remind me never to get on your bad side"

"You already are"

"Rude"

A comfortable silence set over us as we walked slowly down the road in the middle of New York City.

I was so angry.

So so angry.

But I was also so so incredibly sad. How can someone speak about me like that on national television to millions, and the reaction online?

Everyone thinks it's hilarious, most even agreeing with him. How is this the social norms? For people to agree to calling me such a horrible name and finding it funny.

"Delaney" Lewis spoke, snapping his finger in front of my face, drawing my attention back.
"Look at me

I turned to face him, looking up at him as we stopped walking in the middle of the street.

"It's not your fault"

"What?" I said

"It's not your fault Delaney. It's not your fault that Phil Diseal is a dickhead, he's an insecure man who is miserable in himself so he takes his insecurities out on other people. He's a disgusting human being, he always has been. But this is your revenge Delaney, your going to embarrass him and point out to everyone that what he says is not funny, and it's serious"

Dam, maybe I hadn't been subtle with my sadness "but-" I began to say before Lewis cut me off, grasping both my hands

"You are Delaney Fucking Riccardo, you are the greatest tennis player of all time, and I know you won't allow someone like Phil Diseal to talk down to you and get away with it" he said, looking me dead in the eyes as he did

"Okay" I nodded, not knowing what else to say

"Ready to put this shit together?"

"More than ready" I spoke