Taming Celeste Rein Alegre(Intersex/GxG)

Chapter 20

I close my eyes as l feel her warm and soft lips.

She's too shocked at what l did  so l needed to bite her upper lip for her to get back to her senses.

I opened my eyes ng di pa rin talaga ito nagri-react after what l did. Damn her

Halos maduling ako sa lapit namin ngunit kitang kita ko pa rin ang panlalaki ng dalawang mata nito.

" Hey " sabay tapik ko sa pisngi nito. Parang gusto kong mahiya dahil parang ginahasa ko sya sa hitsura nya ngayon.

Gosh, she looks like a fucking tarsier right now.

" D-did you j-just kissed me ?" Gulat pa ding tanong nito

" No, l didn't. Inuntog ko lang yung labi ko sa labi-" l didn't have the chance na tapusin pa ang pagtataray ko sana ng muli nitong sakupin ang mga  labi ko.

My heart beat becomes fast na halos mabingi ako sa lakas at bilis nito.

I have already kissed someone before, but it doesn't felt like this.

Marahan at hindi nagmamadali. She's kissing me like she is savouring every moment. As do l

I was about to touch her left cheeks when  l felt something wet in there.

Napatigil ako sa pagtugon ng mga halik nya. I even held her in her shoulder so l could get a force para kumalas sa ginagawa namin.

" Why are you crying, did l hurt you  ?" I ask with concern in my voice

To my horror, mas lalo lang lumakas ang iyak nito habang parang batang tumatango sa akin.

Nakatakip na ngayon ang dalawang kamay nito sa muka nya na para bang maitatago nun sa akin ang mga luha nya

Did l bit her lips too hard earlier?

" Y-yes, y-ou hurt me." So it's not all about the biting  kisses.

" You hurt me so much to the point na di ko na maramdaman yung sakit because you made me feel numb with all the pain you gave me. Y-you never cared for me, you never loved me, so why?" She asked me in between of her sobs. 

I hate to see her like this. This is all my fault

" So... Why are you suddenly kissing me now? "  Tanong ulit nito matapos ang mahabang katahimikan.

I was just standing here. I'm afraid with her questions. I'm out of myself for a second. Nagtatalo ang isip ko kung sasabihin ko ba sa kanya ang totoo or hahayaan nalang ulit na mawala sya sakin and move on for real, para wala ng gulo.

" Please Rein, l need answers. Hinalikan mo lang ba ako just to make me not leave you here ? Para malimutan ko lahat ng sakit na dinulot mo? para mabaliw na naman ako sayo? " She said with a lot of bitterness in her voice.

" I loved you, Rein. I know you know that."

" l loved you with all my heart to the point that l never questioned my worth. Na basta kapag para sayo, kahit pa ikadudurog maski ng pagkatao ko ,ayos lang as long as mapakita at maipadama ko sayo na gustong gusto kita at hinding hindi kita susukuan "

" Ngayong sumuko na ako, ngayong natatanggap ko na, ano to ? Ano yung selos na nakikita ko sa mga mata mo kapag may kausap akong iba? Ano yung paghalik mo sa akin kanina? I need answers, at hindi tayo lalabas sa kwartong ito ng hindi mo sinasagot ang mga tanong ko " Matapang nitong sambit. She has the courage now. Im glad.