WHALE TALE || JAY P.

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PART II - 'Nobody but YOU'

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I was speechless,

Utterly shocked.

I had nothing in my head,

No ideas, nothing to say.

Afterall,

I could've NEVER expected a confession from him.

I mean,

It's JAY we're talking about.

The guy who calls me...

i) An idiot.

ii) A tortoise.

iii) A monkey.

How am I to ever interpret these as his love for me...?

This is absolutely insane.

I'm insane.

No,

HE'S INSANE.

All these complicated feelings in me...

It's sending chills down my spine.

Having a relationship with the one and only Jay Park...?

Even the thought about it is scary enough.

I looked out of my bedroom window and sighed, not knowing what I could have possibly said to make things better.

Foremost,

I was scared of falling in love,

Scared of being under somebody's arms,

Scared of becoming somebody's responsibility.

What if something happened to us...?

What if I would lose him eventually...?

There has always been uncertainty that I felt coming off him, as though I knew exactly how dangerous it would be if we were to end up being together one day.

What if we weren't really soulmates afterall...?

Would this all become a lie...?

I hugged myself as I closed my eyes, doubting every single positive thought that was to come to my mind.

I could still remember that one day,

The day Father's death was announced to us.

I cried for as long as I could,

But Mother stayed silent.

She didn't speak for three weeks,

And shut herself in her room, not willing to even visit his grave.

It was easy to say that Mother was in complete denial of Father's death.

I couldn't help but imagine,

If something tragic was to ever happen to me and Jay,

Would I have chosen to be like Mother...?

Would I shut the world out like how she did...?

Tears formed in both my eyes as I sighed upon remembering my unpleasant past.