Elena: my life stories (short stories) | book 1 | ✔️

Finding out that i have ADHD

How did I find out that I had ADHD was simple I did not like doing my homework and I actually had to get extra encouragement to do the homework both from my parents gently and my teacher also gently and with a pair of dollar store earrings that being said Zero when I wasn't even having it and those were the nights that were horrible for me if I failed my mother's spelling test or my father got angry at me for forgetting a math question wrong which was all the time I broke down and a nervous wreck and started to pull my hair out and stuff like that I don't have. I was so mad at the time that I had to do the homework instead of watching mommies alive or something to that fact that I was getting angrier and angrier they started to wonder they talk to my daughter...... who are the time was a b*tch!
She ended up referring us to a specialist. Couple of specialist one said that I was a contortionist no sh*t Sherlock, and then another one that was for psychiatry that one I ended up getting on Ritalin because I had to do it was a psychiatrist. I can't remember what the psychiatrist name was but I remember this was when I just wanted to sleep all day at night I still do this, even though I'm not on the medication anymore. It had made me violent as an adult! I kind of essentially the ADHD there's some elements that are still there like I have to bring a book to a restaurant because eating is boring and stuff like that and I wonder where those two little witches got their idea for giving me the eating disorder hackling!
Because I didn't want to eat it was boring. That's how bad my ADHD was imagine me doing my homework that was even worse at the time as a kid and you had to whack your head on the table and stuff. It was not very fun. I even told that to the doctor like I just wanna pull my hair out or whack myself over the head with the frying pan. It would be a lot more enjoyable than doing homework and getting with my parents over said homework!
ADD and ADHD kids I've been told a very gifted individuals. I am not the slightest bit different from that belief as I have an IQ of 196 sometimes I don't act like it or look like it but I do.   I can tell you everything about Outer space tattoos is interesting in the world even I can tell you about what's going on in the news if it's interesting enough for 20 minutes and be done with it but I do my things I use my brain as a file folder not as a thinker that is for the heart like the Egyptians I think with my heart the brain is just where I put my information in if my heart needs to pull it out for less a homework assignment or something I will pull it out and use that intell!   But that is basically how my brain works. I think with my heart my brain is just taking up information and space in my head. I am pretty sure at some points. I am thinking that I'm either not working in the head or maybe I don't have a mental health issue as I don't have a brain cause sometimes I forget my head if I didn't have it attached to me yet some points like I forgot to bring my book upstairs. I forgot to bring this, forgot to that. Oh f*ck I forgot to do that!  I would never see a counsellor or a psychiatrist until I was about 13 years old for Asperger is 17 years old for depression and then 22 for PTSD!
Also, I was on the brand medication for ADD/ADHD that I ended up becoming violent I kicked the car. Yes I kicked the family car. Luckily I didn't dented. I could've if I wanted to, but I didn't because I didn't want to get shit and I did. My mother said that I was going to the doctor and we were going to figure something out and I said no more ADHD medication anymore as this was going to give me a criminal record for sure something I did not want to deal with on a daily basis anymore that I already had to as a teenager.

-T.M