Elena: my life stories (short stories) | book 1 | ✔️

Getting back into the water

Are used to swim until I was about 17 years old that's when I stopped because of PTSD! The water was too cold for my liking and it was triggering!  For the longest time in my group home I wanted to stare down the water devil and start swimming again!  But I either was starting my monthly or wasn't in the mood!  But the after doing horse back riding I was asked if I wanted to get out of my comfort zone and try swimming!  I said that I wanted to mention that one day....
I said yes!
The next thing I knew we were driving to the pool in Carleton Place!  There I was greeted with the alt familiar smell of chlorine in water!  I soon joined the mix and went into the water!  I did not forget a thing about the swimming....its something that you don't forget.....but in a good way!  They I wish the same for the bike!    I could do without bicycling. For a long time!    But swimming I was missing out on lots of things particularly my old friend H2O (water)!  I went into was reminded with the liquid friend and with a girl named crystal....she was one friend that I had when I was in the Perth respite which was good!   So I either talked or swam!  That being said I was happy in the water.....the happiest- to be honest with you!  When I decided to get into the water it was going to be the best thing for me- since therapy but it was more then what I imagined.....it was f*cking fun!    That was the finally for my PTSD- final f*ck you to PTSD!  After a way I was done with facing most of my astronomical demons but there are still smaller ones that I have to face from time to time!  That being said the balloon I f*cking hate and there is nothing no one can do about it!  Unless there is an iron maiden concert and I got an autograph for a balloon that being said except for cirque de solie I still can stand the sound of them popping!  I still like the look of balloons but the sound f them popping makes me want to scream still......even though I am getting better!  One time I brought a balloon animal home and never thought of it again.....but it was the bravest thing I personally did!  I still can stand the popping. That being said I have a longer way to go with balloons even though I was told I was doing better in the balloon department. 
Except for the cirque de solie performance I want nothing to do with balloons!
But swimming I will constantly continue and if the year goes will then the cirque de solie!  That one still is one my reoccurring bucked list item! 
I am currently running out of buckler list items as I seen it all and been there or did that!  The only thing I am not able to do is drive, do Astrophotography but that driving will not happen as I have severe severe PTSD!  There is not sugar coating that sh*t.   I went to also want to be at tattoo artist....and I know how stubborn I am!  I will!

-T.M.