All's fair in Love and Hockey - A Nick and Charlie Fan Fiction

Clowns

Nicks POV:

My eyes struggle to open as the morning sun blinds me. I look over and Char is scrolling through his phone.

"What time is it?" I groan. "Noon" he laughs. Shit. I slept all morning.

"Whatcha looking at?" I tilt my head. "Clowns" he shrugs his shoulders and closes the tab. "Why clowns?" Char is into some pretty weird things, but even this is pretty random for him.

"Idk, they just look so sad but always make other people happy" he stares off into the distance with a pained look on his face. I laugh it off but I can tell he's hurting inside. Maybe just friends isn't going to work for us...

Later that day:

"Well I guess I better get going". I look at the time. Class starts back up tomorrow and I really need to get some sleep. "Yeah, I'll see you in philosophy tomorrow right?" He keeps staring at his phone. He's hardly looked at me all day. "Yeah Definitely. See you tomorrow Char."

Char's POV:

He shuts the door lightly and tears stream down my face. I'm in love with Nick, I miss Ryker and I feel like my entire world came crashing down. I know I am pushing him away but I can't stomach looking at him.

How do you love someone and stay friends with them? How do you not cross the line? All of these questions swirl in my head.

I lay in bed and stare at the ceiling until I can feel the darkness start to swallow me. Maybe I do need to distance myself and just love him from afar.