jeff,
pure man soft man
voice
no shame
prayer
you and i
everything is melting down
jeff my ears are hurting
i need purity
please
please
i am aching
and i am going to disappear
like a man
please jeff save me
i need your love i need your soul
i need to dream
so badly
please sing
please come back to me
please jeff
i’m begging on my knees
for safety
for a calm man
you were the only one here
and now you’re gone
and i’m all alone
with my tears and my shame
that no one wants to bear
i am all alone
with my heavy soul and shaky heart
no one came to support them
no one came to stay
no one, jeff
would you have stayed?
please say yes
would you have held me in anger
would you have forgiven
would you have said i love you
through rain and darkness
would you have written
like i write about you
desperate
you shouldn’t even have had to chase me
i would have come over
without any prayer
i would have given you all the love that existed
all the worlds blooming in my mind
all the crying flowers
and the burnt pages
you know, those that hang on naked walls
i would have learnt to paint
i would have learnt to be beautiful
i know i am
but i would have paid for you to see it
and maybe make me a woman of songs
those that we don’t see but that we hear about
those we are jealous of
those who look so naturally beautiful
just because a man loved them
oh to be a poem
am i condemned to make myself exist
will i always have to reassure myself
and to imagine the love i can’t have
will anyone love me better than i?
