there for me

lunch to dinner

a few days later

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billies pov
i posted a photo last night to tease a song i just finished. the album is still months away so they will forget about it until then.

also kinda came out. but wasn't it obvious?

marley was asleep in my bed. her bare back covered in red lines. it was still the early morning as she had only gotten home from work at 4. i had been sleeping all day so i wasn't tired.

i made myself some breakfast turning on the news. my phone had been blowing up all night. it honestly makes me nervous. i have thousands of texts and messages it's too overwhelming at this point to open them all.

i had my journal open in my lap just drawing and writing down random phrases. it's marley's birthday on the weekend. she thinks i don't know.

i haven't heard her mention anything about it so im going to ask her about it today. i'll respect if she doesn't want to celebrate but it won't stop me for spoiling her.

maybe an hour or so later marley walked in wearing her jeans from last night.
"have you seen my hoodie anywhere" she asked stretching her arms over her head. did i mention she was shirtless. because that's all i can focus on.

the way her hair flowed down her back, messy and fuzzy. her tired eyes. and god her muscles.

"uh no, i um it's. it could be, in the. bathroom?" she chuckled at my attempt of a sentence.

"on second thoughts it's a bit warm" she laughed going to my fridge. "do you have any fruit or juice?" she asked holding the door open.

"yeah in the back maybe, i can't promise it's fresh" i added knowing i spend all my time at her apartment now.

she came back to the lounge room a few minutes later in one of my hoodies and a punnet of strawberries.

she sat right beside me leaning her head on my shoulder. "your cuddly this morning" i smiled wrapping and arm over her.

"what i can't love my girlfriend. jeez" she sat up but i pulled her back into me.

i switched the tv from the news to the office as it was just repeating itself at this point. "your birthdays next week" i stated watching for her reaction.

she hummed the sound low and hesitant. "what about it"

"it's your 20th, that's like double digits all over again" i said and she hummed again "so i'm going to spoil you. do you have any plans with the girls or your family?" i hesitated knowing she rarely talks about her family.

"the girls are taking me out to dinner the night before, then i'll probably have work on my birthday" she looked down at the strawberries and ate another.

"okay well call your boss for the day off. i'm taking you out" she nodded allowing it and setting the strawberries on the coffee table infront of us.

"you okay?" i asked noticing as she got quieter. she nodded wrapping her arms around me.

maybe today is just one of those days.

we lounged around all day as it was gloomy and we had nothing on. she was on her phones texting someone.

she turned her phone off and chucked it on the couch but it just bounced off and fell to the floor. she left it there but groaned when it got another notification.

"who you texting?" i laughed as she did her best to grab it without having to get up from the couch.

"annie" she sighed after finally grabbing her phone.
"who's annie" i asked suspiciously.

"a friend from years ago. we used to dance together"
"you" i paused "danced"

"shocking i know" she said in a monotone voice which told me i had the same reaction of everyone else.

"well now i need photos, what type of dance, for how long-" i countinued asking questions and she just laughed.

"i did ballet from 3-15" she said passing me photos of younger her. "contemporary too" she said quietly. slick back bun. pink or black leotards with pink tights and pink skirts, i don't think i've ever seen marley in pink.

"you seriously are like natasha romanoff, ballet and military training wowzers, why did you quit?"
"it wasn't good on my body, and my teacher was a bad influence"

this whole conversation just made me realise how little i know about her. like i know her of course. but things like this, lores from her childhood. i wish i met her sooner.

"does your friend still dance?" i asked her and she nodded.
"annie took my place as prima ballarina, she was just messaging me saying miss du pont was finally arrested and all the girls were offered places at another dance studio"

"arrested?! what did she do" mars shook her head muttering a quiet. another time. i was curious. i wanted to know. but i didn't push her. all of a sudden her phone started ringing.

"fucking james" she muttered under her breath before answering the call. "no i really can't, it's my day off, yeah i know i had a holiday, how many hours? 9, are you sure no one else can do it, ill be there in an hour" she hung up the call and literally threw her phone.

we both heard it smash on the tiles skidding across the floor. she put her head in her hands bringing her knees up. i put a hand on her back. and i felt her taking a long breath.

"i'm sorry billie, i have to go"
"you've worked every night since we got back, mars he can't seriously make you work"

"i don't have a choice" she looked so tired and i was trying to think of ways to get her out of this. she needs to rest.

in ten minutes she was showered and in her uniform from last night. she was sitting on the floor as i did her hair for her. platting it then wrapping it into a bun.

she stood up and i wrapped my arms around her neck she snaked her hands around my waist.
"ill see you later bil" she whispered kissing my head. i walked her out as she got into her car.

this is getting ridiculous.

a/n
i like ballet right now okay. i had to squeeze it into one of my books.

it all comes together. everything is for a reason trust.