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Chapter 27

Chapter dedicated to deamflum/dreamflum, mahal ka ng ryiah!

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Chapter 27

Naiintindihan ko si Ryker. Kahit naman siguro ako kung biglang mawawala sa ere yung taong mahal ko ay baka mamuo rin ang pagaalala sa dibdib ko. It was easy to say that he should wait for me to recover, but maybe it was my fault for not letting him know that I was recovering. Naiintindihan ko na pinagmukha ko siyang tanga na naghihintay ng update sa buhay ko.

Love is a mutual effort. Hindi palaging green flag kapag yung isa ang naga-adjust sa relasyon. He already did his best to understand me. He made sure that Ryzi was okay when I wasn't. Siya ang nag-asikaso nito. Hindi lang n'ya ako nilapitan dahil hindi ko siya hinayaan. He respected my boundaries. He respected my decisions.

So, I should respect his decision for stopping his feelings for me as well.

"Buti napasa mo pa ang ilan sa mga subjects na napabayaan mo?" Kelsey asked me directly.

Nasa cafe kaming tatlo ngayon. This is a rare thing to happen—kumpleto na naman kami. Masyado kasing busy si Kelsey sa buhay n'ya lately. Hindi na lang namin sinisita ni Lotte dahil buhay naman n'ya iyon.

"Inasikaso ni Ryker," I said while stirring my frappe. Nagulat din ako dahil mas madali akong nakahabol dahil sa mga notes na iniwan ni Ryker sa bahay. Akala ko mahihirapan ako humabol pero nakiusap din pala si Ryker sa mga professor para sa akin.

He really loved me; well, it's too late now. Napagod na siya, nagsawa na siguro, at baka kinamumuhian na ako. I understand him and I won't take it against him.

Bukod kay Mama, isa na rin siguro si Ryker sa mga taong sana ay maaga kong naparamdam na mahal ko rin. I hope I have the chance to make him mine again. . .to be loved by him again.

"Wala na ba kayo ni Ryker?" Kelsey inquired, obviously piqued about him.

"Wala na," I answered truthfully. "Kasalanan ko naman. I made him feel that he wasn't part of my life."

Lumingon sa akin si Lotte. Her eyes seemed to agree with what I said. Ito ang gusto ko kay Lotte. She knows when it's our fault and when it isn't. Ngumiti ako sa kan'ya dahil parang may gusto siyang sabihin. Maybe she's looking at me for permission.

"You think so too, Lotte?" I said.

Lotte blinked before shrugging her shoulders off. Napainom siya sa iniinom n'yang chai latte, one of her favorites. "It's not entirely your fault. You were in a dark place that time, Ziah. Pero maganda rin na alam mong valid yung nararamdaman ni Ryker."