Our Journey

Chapter 14 Faith

I woke up and started my morning I was very happy and wanted to get this day started I was so happy my lady was out and my birthday is today so nothing can mess up my day I was so focused and ready for my day to begin were entering November and my birthday is today I'm excited I turned 18 new beginnings to myself I said I woke up just like a regular morning for me and I rolled over and checked my phone and my love wished me a happy birthday and hope that I have a good day I loved that so much the littlest things help so much I didn't want to look forward to anybody else messages hers caught my eye yes others did as well but my lady what she said mean the most to me and made me smile so much and uncontrollably what she said to me made my heart warm and smile she even posted us and written how much she loved me and who shed me a happy birthday I think that was the first time she ever posted us everybody was in our business the whole city they stay watching and I didn't like that cause where I live when they dare someone happy and happy with somebody they'll tend to miss it up for anybody and I didn't want that of course I wanted them to see us happy and love each other we not private just not everyone else business and I love that for us I really did I snapped out my thoughts and I told my baby that I thanked her so much and appreciated it, she said you're welcome and she would come and see me today hopefully she will cause I really want to see her on my special day I want her to make my day even more special I wanted her to complete my day and make it great just seeing her presence makes my heart grow so fonder for her I loved that girl so much and wtv I decided to do she was right with me or even came up with a better solution that's my girl as I'm just thinking again to myself about her every time and everyday it doesn't feel me thinking or reminiscing about her or even us I be finding myself day dreaming out of it just thinking about us and what we can do to each other and what I can do to her just so many thoughts was running through my head,I didn't go to school today cause why not it's my day so I decided to take off I felt like that was the best thing to do cause I really didn't feel like going to school on my birthday I wanted to be comfortable and do what I wanted for my day before you knew it I got dressed and started my day I rolled me up a few and started smoking just enjoying my company and started to open up my Hennessy I had bought I was already feeling a buzz and I just started the day and just started this I was already feeling so good, somehow I ended up dozing off until my sister came home from school I didn't even know I had fell asleep my sister had eventually came and she had a letter for me and it was from my girl I was so excited like she gifted me a million dollars cause that's what it felt like letters coming from her meant so much to me cause we didn't have any other way to communicate with each other so letters was the way every day I look for a letter from her and when I did get one it felt so good inside my sister gave me a couple letters my lady have did for me for my birthday I wanted to spark one up before I had read my letters so I begin rolling and sparked up my blunt and took a hard pull I begin to look at the letters she had gave it says to me as I read happy birthday in coloring written all over it and a whole essay for me she did I loved every word she said but she couldn't make it to see me but that's okay cause this letter made up for it I kept reading the letter over and over she was telling me how she loves me and so proud of me and don't think I'm grown lol that made me giggle fr I'm just sitting here smiling at my letters I keeper re reading and re reading my mama going to say how many times you're going read that I'm like mama stay out my business stop hating we both laughed the note said she will come see me tomorrow morning since she couldn't make it on my birthday I was so excited but scared also cause I didn't want her to get in anymore trouble coming to see me but that didn't matter to my baby she showed up everytime for me but I had a good birthday I spend time with my family but I seen them too much I really wanted my girl she would've made my day so much better and so much more complete and comfortable only things I was missing was only her I needed her so bad in so many waves I'm just craving her body so much I can't help it I'm so hungry I'm craving for her and her touch her smiles her pretty face I needed that I thought to myself , night time had came and I was so drunk I'm sending her voice messages knowing she won't be able to get them I'm out my mind telling my folks I'm going marry this girl and she with me for life and she ever tried to leave that wouldn't even happen that like okay okay calm down, telling folks I love them and all so to all sum it up I had a wonderful birthday and I felt my girl presence with me and I hope she was doing okay the entire day she was on my mind I eventually blacked out and fell asleep I had a wonderful birthday only thing I needed was her only.