Our Journey

Chapter 18 Surprise Guests Continued

I jumped out my sleep my heart was pounding so much I opened the door and instantly and I seen her mother at first and then her auntie walked up beside her, her mother hit me with have you seen my daughter just the look on her face I could tell she was mad and thought she was here she proceeded to say don't lie and I said no ma'am I haven't seen her at all or I don't know where she's at I thought to myself it hurts me lying for her again I just didn't want her to get jn trouble at all I hate lying I didn't like it and I didn't like the situation I was being put in cause I know for sure her mother doesn't like me now if she just would've listened to me this would've never happened I thought to myself just so many emotions was tuning through my head and mind at the moment her whole mother is here this is the first time me and her mother ever meet and this is the occasion I knew it was a bad impression for me and I didn't like that I was I'm a very respectful person I don't want her to think I'm disrespectful or getting her daughter in trouble I can tell she was so mad at me I snapped out my thoughts and her mother said you the one got her the phone she's not even supposed to be having one she said to me I told her I didn't know she couldn't have no phone I just thought she didn't have one so I got her one I didn't mean anything by it as I say cause I really didn't I wonder why she can't have a phone why is it that serious her auntie pitched in and was like yes she can't have one cause of a incident that happen I wonder what incident she haven't told me anything about that at all or she never told me she couldn't have a phone and that her mother wouldn't allow it I was clueless and confused if I only knew I would've never got her that phone at all I would've never subsided her mothers rules for her I'm not that type at all I begin to crawl back into my thoughts and my mind I proceeded to say yes ma'am I did I said she didn't have a phone and she didn't have one and I just thought it would've been nice me getting her one I made sure I let her mother know I didn't know she wasn't supporting have a phone and also her Auntie I apologized to them both and her auntie asked me the same question her mother asks by that time her mother had walked off somewhere and her auntie was like do you know where she is and I'm like no ma'am and I told her she can come look around cause I swore I didn't have her in here with me nor knew where she was at the moment my heart just beating so fast for jets reason I don't know my aniexty was every where I coding control it so her auntie came in and look throughly throughout the whole apartment I just was standing and letting her look throughout and she saw she wasn't there and she was like thank you and she was sorry and I told her she's okay and she's welcome and they left, I shut the door put my back against it hurried and grabbed my phone to text her that her mother and auntie is looking for her and for her to please get to the house cause I was so worried about her getting into so much trouble and for her mind to be on much more things than it's already is for her I was growing in my thoughts about her i even told her I was worried and just for her to make it back home so everything can be okay I thought and she said she will and to not worry but I'm always going worry when it's about her she's knows that and she knows I can't help it when it comes to her my mind goes towards so many bad thoughts and it'll be on my mind especially about her I wanted her to be okay in her little mind I hate when she tell me not to worry cause I've always worry about her and what's she's getting into cause I know by the look on her mother face it wasn't going to be so well between them I didn't want things much worser between the two I told her how I felt and everything about her just up and leaving and having people look for her and she said I know I should've listen to you and she apologized and she told me she's going home and they're going drop her off I was just so mad in my thoughts cause she went and know this is bad for her and her thoughts but instantly a little weight fell off my shoulders and I could just allow myself to breathe in and out and just trying to control my mind I ended up deciding that I wanted to roll me one cause it was very needed for me I need something to get my worries off my mind about her I begin breaking down my weed with my fingers and had the cigar already broke down and start rolling up I eventually finished and dried it and I sparked up and took a mean pull so I can feel it in my body as soon as I inhale the feeling made me feel so good inside releasing my worries my bad thoughts and what's going to happen to her and her mother I just thought to myself fuck I hope she's okay cause I know how bad her anger and her mother anger can get it doesn't mix up well at all so I prayed and just hoped everything was okay with her as I prayed so hardly to god so he can hear me and help my girl I thought to myself.