Our Journey

Chapter 17 The surprise Guests

couple weeks forward we are doing good she's doing good she says I've always have to check on her and make sure it's a must with me it's like a priority always going to make sure she's okay I thought, I woke up like a regular morning and started my day and I made sure I texted her goodmorning but she already beat me to it that's what I love the most about her the littlest things can make my heart so happy and grow so fonder in so much love I've always have to be the one to text good morning or anything like that so when she does it it's different to me and I love it and I know my heart loves it so much more, I asked her how she was feeling she said she was okay and I know that meaning she's really not okay when she says okay or leave her words dry I know something wrong with her sometimes she don't tell me nothing at all what's going on cause she doesn't want me to worry but I let her know I don't care about me worrying I just wanted to know what's going on with my girl and let me know what's going on that's all cause I can only know what you tell me I can't read her mind knowing In my power I want to know everything that's going on in her mind I can only know what she tells me and I hate that but I be so patient with my princess cause I know it's hard and I know eventually she's going to come to me and tell me what's going on in her mind and with her I don't want her to be in her dark moments without me I wanted to help and so much more and I just hoped and see she understood that as the type of person I am I make sure everybody is okay even before myself I run my mind so much thinking of how to make someone is feel better or get better with in themselves, I knew so much was bottled in her mind already so I just told her come to me when you're ready to talk just so much bottled in her mind she can't escape from and she's going back down that dark whole it's hard to get herself out of I can tell the way she's talking to me and even when I get to see her I see in her eyes she's going through a lot and so much I don't see any emotion in those beautiful eyes I wanted to give her spark back I want her to be eventually okay she's so strong and she's trying I can see in her that's she trying with all her might she says I help her with her problems and out of her dark whole but she's still in it and still feeling so down even how much I try to make her feel better she just fall right back into and I just start questioning myself am I doing enough is my help strong enough to heal and fix her I thought to myself it's can't be strong she needs more power then me she needs professional help that I can't give her she doesn't want to tell her mother cause she's just going send her away or tell her she's just a kid she says i understand her more than anybody I felt so special when she said that to me as I remembered I wanted my princess to be the happiest girl ever and stop letting everything get to her head even people I just want her to show her emotions and speak them out loud so they can slowly and eventually get away all the bad thoughts in her Mind I just want it to make it peaceful and quiet but am I stronger enough to do so am I stronger enough to get her out of this dark space I thought I eventually snapped out my thoughts the day went by so quick I've been thinking that much I told myself it's already falling night time she eventually texted me and told me what's wrong she's just thinking so much and things about her mom have her in her head and she doesn't know how to really talk about it I made sure she know's I'm here and then we was just talking to eachother and then she's going tell me her friend said for her to come over and they're going to come get her I didn't think this was a good idea I know this wasn't a good idea for her to do cause look at what happened last time they sent her away I don't want it to happen this time I thought to myself bringing myself so much anxiety about her but she wanted to go so she went anyway and they came and got her, knowing that was a bad decision the whole night I'm worrying cause I know how her mom gets if she didn't ask to go anywhere her mom was going to call the police I just knew so my whole vibe was off with her and I didn't mean it to be I was just worried for her and I didn't want her to get in trouble but she didn't listen to me so our vibe was off with eachother so we didn't talk for the rest of the night cause why won't she just listen to me but I know her mind was everywhere I just wanted her to listen and talk to me so everything could it would've been better I just couldn't believe she left anyway knowing what would happen so eventually I smoked me one trying to control my mind and my thoughts and eventually I went to sleep, next morning I hear a hard beating knock on the door it woke me out my sleep quickly I looked through the peephole it was her mother and her tt Cole..