Our Journey

Chapter 7 Getting Closer

Couple weeks later we're texting all the time now it's never a day where we're not talking to each other it's just doesn't feel right without talking to each other I loved talking to her she loves talking to me and I can tell and sense she does it's never a time where she don't check up on me she check up on me almost every single time she gets even when she's not okay herself and he's never time where I don't either but her I can tell she cared alot about me and I cared a lot about her my feelings are becoming so much stronger where I couldn't fight it she was making me fall in love already and I was ready for that we both was it's like every time we talked to each other we become comfortable it's like I can tell when she was having bad days she can tell when I was having bad days we can always sense how we're both feeling we could tell when we was both just growing through emotions good or bad we was both so there for one another, when I'm having a bad day she can cheer it up and make it better than anybody else can or could've she just had it like that with me she makes smile so much when we're talking to where my cheeks start to burn just from smiling or laughing so much and I hope it was the same for her we needed each other we made one another feel so happy ,so now she's beginning to feel more comfortable with me opening up with me about what she's going through what's going through her head and her dark thoughts and what was making her feel so down and so bad and I'm her mind so much I just wanted to know and understand her and help her or at least put my all into doing it I just wanted her to know this is a safe place for her and that she could come to me about anything she's going through put all her worries all on me I told her just to let her know I'm here and always will be for her cause I can tell she was such a broken soul all I can see when I look at her is a sad little girl that just need some guidance someone who can truly understand her and let her know everything would be just fine if she just believe in opening up and letting everything go knowing it will be so hard for her to do that but I try my best to push that into her but not to much so I won't scare her off and just let her know to take her time to open up her feelings and why she's this way and how can I help I asked myself as well how can I help will my help be enough of what's she feeling and going through how long will my help help I asked myself cause whatever have her in her mind it's powerful causes she's in it deep to where she can't get out off I listen and I understand her, at times I can sense what's wrong with her but she would never tell me what's going on in her mind she would just brush it off or push me away I just want to help and understand but I know it's so hard for her to communicate and ask for help when she really needs it or come to me when needed when she's drowning in her thoughts like that she tends to stay to herself and be nonchalant about what's going on and I have to break her from doing that and I will I have to make that my priority for her to open up to me and let her know I'm here and try to understand her situation, feelings, thoughts just want to get her out that dark place and make her be happy again and also teach her to help herself and learn to let things go cause everything bottling up in her head making it so much worser for her as I told her I wanted her to feel every word that I was saying and coming from let her know what she needed to hear from somebody and always help herself be there for her before anybody , but I didn't let that stop me I didn't let her not opening up stop me cause I was going to help her learn I promise myself to make sure I'll get her to open up to me I didn't stopped until she did and it was about her mom she finally opened up to me I thought so happy in my head yes she's doing so good and I'm just listening hearing her out and understanding her when I mean listening to ever words she was saying to me I wanted to understand why she was feeling like that so of course I'm going pay all my attention on her listen to all her problems putting them all in my head to get them off of her or at least try to I know it sounds crazy but I just want to help her, she told me it was alot going on with her and her mother just emotionally abuse towards her and not being there for her when she really needed her, she come to me everytime they had a argument or a disagreement I would be right there by her side letting her know it's okay, she have so much bottled in her mind so young and they hurt me too see that's what brung us most closer cause I was her person she could come to and feel safe to talk about her problems with her mom and sometimes it would get physically and I didn't like that for her at all, they go through it so bad it would make her feel the need not to be here anymore and I talk her out of it everytime let her know I'm patient with her and not too think like this, and when I calm her down off that subject and we talked about everything and she had a little relief off her mind and shoulders I felt great by helping her do just that so to get her mind on something else I asked her would she like to come spend the night with me?