Our Journey

Chapter 19 Destruction

ovi pov, I woke up late in the day I didn't even go to school and I didn't have work so I was good it was just becoming like a regular old day like usually, but my mind was still on her and how was she doing and what's going on in her mind And how did everything go I just thought to myself making my own self so sick to my stomach at the worry of worrying about her did anything bad happen to her I thought with the situation happen how did her mother go about it I thought to myself just having my mind everywhere and it was hard for me to control it, i heard my phone vibrate I haven't even touched my phone until now could this be her I thought and I only have her on my favorites when my phone is on dnd so I know it's her and nobody else I quickly looked and she texted me and she told me that her and her mom got into really bad and it ended up and a physical altercation and my baby ended up really hurt I didn't want to hear that at all from what my lady had to go through I told her not to go cause I just felt it in my heart something was going to happen really bad between her and her mother I could tell that this was affecting her badly cause all she wanted from her mother was love and attention and her support and just to pay attention and care for her and really understand where her feelings is coming from and to understand just cause she's a kid she has feelings too as well so I know she feel like her mother should consider them and she should I just hate it this so much for my baby cause I know this is messing with her head so much and she's already going through enough and for this to be happening I know she's in a really dark place now she can't get out off she not cant escape it and I can tell cause the way she was acting and telling me she just can't take it anymore with her mother and her life and I told her please don't say anything like that and her mother just needs to take time and sit down and understand her but she says they tried they many of times and it's still the same result it's like when they try to talk to each other her mother pins it All on her and they just go back and forth and she try's to talk to her mother but it just ends up in a full argument and it ends up not being solved or fix just right back to where they started at and it never gets better if it's just going to end in arguments, so she ended staying with her homegirl for awhile at least a month to give her and her mother time especially my babygirl I felt as if she will be more clam at her homegirls and away from her mother they both just need a clear head Space to think what's going to better them as a mother and daughter I thought to myself I know my girl didn't want to leave her little sisters I know she's in her mind about that and the situation about her mother all she could think about is her dark thoughts that roamed in her mind why is she's not good enough for her mother she just want to be good enough and not resemble as a bad child which she is not she just need guidance from her mother and love and to really considerate her thoughts and feelings what went on at the house with my girl and her mother really messed up her mind she was in so dark she wanted to leave this world and I reassured her that I'm here for her and always will be and don't say anything like that anymore she deserves to be in this world her beautiful soul just need healing I told her and just take time with her mother and her mother should take time with her they both should take time with each other and put in so much effort so they can both be okay cause I know her mother going through it as well without her daughter I know she loved and cared for her daughter my girl just didn't think her mother could show that I've seen the love she has for my girl but at the same time it's not for her as I thought ,she was thinking about getting away from her mothers guardianship and I thought that was a good idea also so where she can finally be free and escape from the hurt the feeing of drain everyday I thought it'll be good so she can be okay and nothing to worry about anymore but deep down I wanted them to fix what they had going on between the two I told her I think that was a good idea she's just going to have help with it I say and she said she understands she already talked to her therapist about it and they're talking so I thought this will be so good for her she thought it will be good for her also I can tell a little relief went off her shoulders and relaxed her but those dark thoughts are still lingering on her mind so heavenly, I finally felt safe and my head to where she was somewhere she was alright cause I've always wanted her to keep herself safe and be safe always I wanted her to clear her mind get her beautiful soul out her thoughts and feelings but I know that's so hard for her to and I don't blame her look at the things she went through so I didn't have no right telling her how she should feel she just needed to noticed her feelings and let them all the way out release all the bad energy and thoughts going on in her mind, I thought to myself I hate what happened to her nobody deserves that or to feel that way with their mother but they both was in the wrong with each other they just needed to talk it out and wonder all the whys but it didn't happen like that instead it went the total opposite, but I can tell she was still in her thoughts really bad I made I tried everything in my power to get her thoughts off her mind it just wasn't budging at all I reassured her about everything even about her mother and what's going on with her feelings all I wanted her to know that I was here for her and will be I love this girl so much and I hate to see her so down in her head and her mind she was suffering in her mind and I was there right by her side through it all I told her I loved her and everything going to get better just put it in gods hands I told her and just let it go slowly, I prayed for her every moment I got never went a day without praying for her, we continued keeping each other company texting and calling each other just being right by her side each others side and I tried to calm her mind and thoughts down the whole day to make sure my princess was just fine, my heart hurts so much for her all I can do is give everything to good and continue to keep our head up continue to keep her crown held up high I thought to myself everything going to be okay as I prayed.