Our Journey

Chapter 8 Sparks

I woke up like a regular morning we already 2 months into the school year and I'm already ready to get this over and done with I thought to myself my anxiety was just ready for it all to be over with, I decided not to go today I just didn't feel like it today or at all right now so I decided to take the day off and I was off at work so it was a plus for me, I woke up and smoke like I regularly do and I get a text from her " you not coming to school today" I got a text from her I felt bad I didn't go cause this only time we see each other we don't see each other outside of school so it was the only time we would even get to see each other physically I don't think her mother know about me just yet or how she even feel about her daughter liking girl I was scared of the thought cause someday I do want to meet her family and more I just don't want to see her only in school I would love to see her out of school so I'm just thinking should I ask to come spend the night with me or that's doing to much I thought to myself no it's not cause I know she wants to see me out of school as well and only us nobody else around us but only us I wanted her to myself only her I thought I'm just imagining her touch on my face my body rubbing her hands through my locs I'm imagining I'm imagining me and her and one another arms just so locked in we both can't escape each other touches, the thought of just us smiling face to face kissing deeply admiring her beauty while my palm of my hands caressing the structure of her face softly while she softly smiles in lay her head in the palm of my hands where it fit so perfectly so right where she lays it on there softly knowing I have her and this is her safe place she can call home while telling her she is so beautiful whole moving her hair out her face and kiss her passionately in between kisses telling her she's one of a kind and so beautiful i catch myself smiling as I day dreamed day dreaming about her thinking about her I thought to myself what could this be sparks I'm feeling as question and asks myself have this what I've been feeling all along i like her i thought in my head I like her I said again this what I've been feeling since I first laid eyes on her I'm feeling so many sparks throughout my mind and body the sparks she's been giving me are like no other she's the girl I want I said but I want to ask her to be my girlfriend the right way I want to tell her that In person I feel like that would be more better cause I feel like that's the most respectful way cause I truly don't believe you're not in a relationship if they hasn't ask you to be theirs I felt so I had to make this official she's been waiting for me long enough I'm done letting my fears control my love I'm willing to try again with love with her and make sure it go right and I do right this time I know what I wanted what I've been wanting but was to scared to accept it at first what I wanted was her as I thought I quickly snapped out my thoughts and I texted her back I sadly told her no I wasn't going to make it today she understood why I didn't come and I love that about her but deep down I know she was sad about me not coming cause I know she wanted to see me cause that's the only time we see each other but my anxiety just wouldn't let me go and I felt so bad cause deep down I wanted to see her ,I didn't even go back to sleep I got up and did my routine and got the day started and I just relaxed cause I didn't have work or I didn't go to school so I stayed up the whole day talking to her and I loved it I can go all day talking to her and never get tired, I asked her again about coming over she said she would she would love to come over I was so excited about it cause she really wants to see me too just like I am for her and I love we both have the same energy I think that's why I like her so much cause she just like me in someone every time I look at her I see apart of me she act just like me my mini me already and I love that I could already see my life without her, I was nervous to see her cause I'm going to see her out of school and we only see each other in school around people where we don't have no privacy but now it's just going to be only us together and that what felt so good and made me nervous cause her beautiful self going to be right in my hands where I can hold and touch her feel all of her and kiss her just love on her what I've been craving to do and I know she has to I know what we both want each other she was so excited as well for coming to stay with me she couldn't wait and I loved how she was so happy about it I loved that she so adorable anything she does just be so cute me she said she couldn't wait to see me and I couldn't wait to see her as well I smiled to myself, so we planned her coming over and spending the night with me we was both ready cause we wanted one another alone by ourselves my jaws now became so sore how much I've been smiling the whole day I'm just thinking about her and us until the day ended and I called it a night tomorrow I can't wait to see her pretty self I thought.