Our Journey

Chapter 43 Her vs Her

4 weeks later the relationship between me and girl it's was going good the first few weeks I mean it was peaches and cream I felt like I was inlove again we did the lovey dovey shit even if we was far away from each other she still made it feel more better than her in just one month she made me feel loved that gentle love I wasn't use to it, it was different I was use to the toxicity said she was coming to see me for my graduation that was my surprise but we had a argument and she ended up telling me about it and oh did I forget me and my ex are talking again and we decided on being best friends I told my girl that and she was okay with it, but everytime I talk to my ex I smile like and and think about the shit we use to do that's why I haven't looked at any of our pictures and videos cause I was going to think about her whole time I knew I was still inlove with her I just didn't want to accept or I just thought it was just lust just keeping me connecting to her knowing it's wrong but she has me on a leash I just can't get off I feel like why can't I move on be loved, when me and my girl got into arguments I got to her to vent cause she always listen to me and she take up for me everytime I can tell she still loved me and wanted me, she then sent me a screenshot of my girl following her and they followed eachother back my ex love to troll and she posted a tiktok my girl thought it was about me and my ex she texted her they went back in fourth I'm just like damn I thought my girl telling me to get her I can't control that girl she do what she do and she got mad and said I take up for her all the time and I still loved her it was the truth I thought but I really didn't know what to say I felt bad, that keep happening a few times.