The Love Of Homophobic (BXB)

Chapter 19

Stop

Sierra's and I were both silent as we sat on her colored peach couch. Pagkatapos kong sagutin ang tanong niya ay hindi na siya nagsalita at hinila na lang ako paupo.

"I had a feeling..." she started. I didn't look at her and waited for her to continue.

"... that something was different about you the first time I met you. I even thought that you were a girl wearing boy's clothes because of how feminine your actions were, unlike any other guy I've met. But my parents clarified to me that you are a guy... and aside from that, I don't just judge someone based on their actions." she said as she played with her fingers.

"I'm sorry if I didn't tell you..." that almost came as a whisper. "I was afraid that once you knew about it, you'd avoid me. Even though we've only been together for a short time, I treasure our friendship. I'm afraid that because of my sexuality, you might feel uncomfortable around me, and I might lose you..."

I had never been so afraid of sharing my sexuality until I met Zeus. The experience with him changed everything for me. All the words he said to me left a deep scar in my heart, causing a trauma that made me terrified to show the real me. His harsh judgments and cruel remarks made me feel small and unworthy, and since then, I've become too conscious of my actions. The pain and rejection I felt from his words haunt me, making it difficult to trust or believe that anyone could accept me as I am.

"Hey..." Sierra's worried voice broke my thoughts. I hadn’t noticed that I was already crying. These past few days, my heart has been so heavy, and I don’t have anyone to share what’s happening to me.

Ayokong malaman 'to ng magulang ko dahil maaaring magkahidwaan ang pagkakaibigan nila ni Tito. At lalong ayoko namang sabihin ito kina Ali at Damien dahil baka magalit sila sa 'kin na hindi ko sinabi na una pa lang ay magkakilala na kami ni Zeus at ang pamilya namin.

It’s not that I don’t trust them, but I am afraid of what will happen in the future just because of my selfish feelings for Zeus.

Sierra handed me a handkerchief, and I took it to wipe my tears. I tried to calm myself down.

"S-Sorry about that..." garalgal ang boses ko nang sinabi ko iyon.

"Grey... I don't know why you are so scared to share who you really are with me, but I just want you to know that I fully support you, no matter what. I want you to feel comfortable talking to me about anything that's on your mind or in your heart and nothing you say will change how much I care about you. So please, don't feel like you have to hide or be someone else around me. I'm here for you..." her soothing voice while saying that made me cry even more.

I let myself to cry for a while while she hugged from the side. Nang maramdaman kong okay na ay humiwalay ako sa kaniya.

"T-Thank you, Sierra."

She smiled at me sweetly, her eyes reflecting gratitude and warmth. "You're welcome, and thank you for opening up to me."

Ngumiti ako pabalik at pinagmasdan siyang tumayo para buksan ang kaniyang T.V.

"Let's watch a movie!" She giggled excitedly, browsing through the options on the screen.

"What genre do you prefer?" she asked, turning to look at me.

"Anything will do," I replied softly.

"Okay! Let's go with mystery then," she decided, grabbing her phone to make a quick call.

"Hi! Could you please bring drinks for two to the bedroom, and also the food I prepared earlier from the refrigerator... yes, thank you!"

Ilang minuto ang nakalipas at may kumatok na sa kwarto niya, dala ang kaniyang binilin. I smiled at the maid and she nodded at me.