The Love Of Homophobic (BXB)

Chapter 14

Sierra

I woke up to the sun beaming through my blinds. I groaned and cradled a pillow on my face. Gusto ko pang matulog at isa pa ay masakit ang mga mata ko para imulat. Hanggang sa panaginip ko ay dala ko ang mga nangyari sa akin and I don’t even know if I can consider it a nice dream or a nightmare.

I peek at my phone to check the time. It’s already 1 in the afternoon kaya napabangon ako bigla sa higaan at pinilit ang sarili ko na pumunta ng banyo para mag-ayos. Pagkatingin ko sa sarili ko sa salamin ay sobrang maga ng mata ko dahil sa pag-iyak.

Alas singko na ako ng umaga nakatulog dahil sa kaka-iyak at kakaisip sa nangyari sa araw na ‘yon. It’s a bittersweet memory that I don’t want to forget. Buti na lang ay hindi ako pinuntahan ni Mama kanina para gisingin sa almusal. I bet they are worried about me.

After I took a bath, I went to my mini fridge to get some ice and covered it with a face towel. I spent my 30 minutes putting that on my eyes to lessen the swelling. I have to make sure I look okay before going downstairs.

I saw Mom reading a book in our living room when I came down. I immediately went to him and kissed his cheeks. Gulat naman siyang napatingin sa akin at ngumiti din kalaunan. I guess he’s too focused on what he’s doing; that’s why he didn’t notice my presence.

“Good morning, baby. How’s your sleep?”

“Not that good, but I am better now.” I smiled at him.

“That’s good to hear, and you can come to me anytime to share what happened, if you’re ready.” Nakahinga ako ng maluwag sa sinabi niya at lalong napangiti, I was afraid that he'd ask me questions about yesterday, and I don’t have a choice but to say the truth because I hate lying to my parents.

“Thank you, Mama.”

He answered me with a smile and stood up. “Bet you’re hungry, so I cooked your favorite.” Aniya habang naglalakad patungo sa kusina at excited naman akong sumunod sa kaniya.

Pinaupo niya ako at siya ang naghanda ng kakainin ko. I was so touched while watching him take care of me. Parang bigla ay gusto kong mag-break down at ipaalam sa akniya ang mga nangyari. I know I can trust him; it’s just that I also know that he will not remain silent once he knows that Zeus is abusing me physically and verbally.

“By the way, Grey, we’re going to your Tito Caius and Tito Gaze’s house later. They’ll have a welcome party for their daughter, and we're invited to come.”

Napatigil ako sa kinakain ko at nagtatakang tumingin sa kaniya. “They have a daughter?” tanong ko. All this time ay akala ko si Zeus lang ang anak nila.

“Yes. Her name is Sierra. I’m sorry, baby. I thought we already told you that.”

Ngumiti ako at umiling, “Nothing to be sorry, Ma. Where does she live?”

“She’s living in the US, and she’s living with her grandparents. Sierra’s choice.”

“Oh, okay…” The conversation ended and I continued eating my lunch. I was wondering if I should go or not. Hindi ko pa kaya makita si Zeus.

But I think Zeus will not be there since based on my experience, he’s not really a fan when it comes to family celebrations, and I hope so.

“Is there a theme for the party, Ma?” I asked her while my eyes were on the screen. My mom and I are now watching some documentaries on TV while eating snacks.

“Hmmm… not really. You can wear anything you want.” Tumango-tango ako at nag-focus na sa pinapanuod.

At 6 p.m., my dad came home from work. Sinalubong namin siya ni Mama and I gave him a hug. These past few days, they were busy and I’m also busy at school kaya hindi kami masyadong nagkikita kaya namiss ko sila.  Ito na lang yata ulit yung magkakasama kaming lumabas simula ng mag start yung school.