Stuff I write

Young enough

February 28, 2024. 1:29 AM

Living life like I should have given up before
Living life like I never knew I was alive before
Living life thinking I shouldn't be here anymore
Living life just waiting for that day to come
In the dark with the void being deep in my soul

I pray to nothing since I've never been heard before
I'm just alive in this miserable train of thought
It could run me over anytime it wants
I'm asleep, am I dead? please let it be death
I'm so tired of the wait please just take me home
I've been quiet for so long, I've been such a good boy

Please, come on, please let it be death
I just want some love and I'm getting none
This victim mentality is eating my soul
It's the void so deep that's making me rot
I wanna get out but I'm such a bum
I'm a burden to anyone, just let me go home

Living life like I should have given up before
Living life like I never knew I was alive before
Living life thinking I shouldn't be here anymore
Living life just waiting for that day to come
In the dark with the void being deep in my soul

I just wanna recover but I don't know how
I'm so young, I'm so old, my life's running away
I cry and pretend to always ask for help
I lie and say I've started running again
It's a lie, I just watch YouTube all day
In my bed, in my rot, I'm always the same
Never changed, never change, it's pizza again

No drugs, no alcohol but may as well be the same
Is the carbs that I eat and everything that I say
Is my brain, his addiction to degrading ourselves
I gotta stop, gotta stop
Somebody help me now
I'll listen this time I promise on my life
I want to change, gotta change, start fresh again
I'm not old, I'm just young and foolish that's all
I will change, I can change, I'll be better I know