HAUNTED BY THE GHOST OF YOU [NI-KI] | [니키] | [2]

10- Let her go

RIKI'S POV:

After placing the last kiss on Nara's cheek i began walking off. Nara was only standing without a single movement with her back turned towards me.

I looked back for one more time and sighed.

"I wish we could have just worked out"

I mumbled under my nose staring at my love that was about to leave me. I wasn't working these last days since i tried to make US work again. Our relationship was very dear to me but not to Nara.

You just have to let some people go or you would have destroyed them or yourself. It's a choice we never want to make.

I was walking through the hall while i stopped at the spot Nara started crying her eyes out because of my lies. I glazed at the floor when a tear started running down my cheek.

"What the fuck is wrong with me, i never cried" i punched myself in the arm as a punishment for me finally feeling something towards someone.

It was the first time i let someone hold my heart but the person broke it into thousands of pieces and i deserved it. It was my karma for all the lifes i ruined by trying to save me.

I never saved myself at the end.

I woke up to reality and continued making my way to the front door. I opened them and slammed them behind myself.

I left the memories behind me and it was the moment where i decided I'll rather walk away.

It hurted me leaving the woman i choose. It hurted me that lots of girl died because of my stupid game and it was for nothing.

I hate myself.

NARA'S POV:

As soon as Riki slammed the door shut behind himself i broke into tears. It hurted me even though i couldn't remember us.

I gave Riki a lot of hard time just because i couldn't control myself. I even ruined his friendship with Sunghoon. He argued or fought over me and i left him like nothing.

The day he brought me into the hospital was the day he lost me while i was still breathing.

Is it better to leave someone bleed out to death living for the rest of your life in the imagination the person loved you or is it better to save the person even if you'll feel like worthless shit?

I was overthinking too much for a person i didn't even remember. Riki being my fiance and me not remembering him proposing to me. But one thing was clear to me.

I said yes to him, i had to love him so much and that calmed me down.

"Maybe not in this lifetime but in another universe i wouldn't forget you ,Riki" i mumbled.