HAUNTED BY THE GHOST OF YOU [NI-KI] | [니키] | [2]

19- True colors of his emotions

After a while of just kneeling there hugging eachother, i started thinking about the words he just said to me and it didn't make sense.

I couldn't remember what happened between me and Riki clearly but it was all coming to me day by day. Everything started making sense about the game Sunghoon told me about.

It happened here. This was the playground where we met.

But i couldn't figure out why was Sunghoon apologizing for and why was he saying all of this so suddenly.

"Sunghoon what's happening?" I said once i heard Sunghoon crying more and more. His tears were still running down my neck as he sobbed and i didn't know what to do.

"I couldn't do anything" He mumbled when he squished my whole body even harder.  I didn't understand a word he was saying.

I pulled away from him grabbing his face afterwards.

"Calm down, what is happening?" I questioned Sunghoon while i deeply glazed into his brown eyes full of tears.

I have never seen him so devastated so i started to worry about what happened that made him act like this.

"I couldn't" His breath got heavier as he mouthed those two words. He wasn't able to say what happened and i started panicking.

"Please talk, please" i mumbled while looking at more and more tears run down his cheeks.

Sunghoon began to cry even more and i started patting him on the back pulling him in a hug one more time.

"It's alright just tell me later" I tried to calm him down.

My eyes were a bit teary but i forgot about everything after seeing Sunghoon cry. Those eyes that were hearless turned into teary ones with so many emotions in them.

We sat there for like a half of hour but to be honest i didn't had clue about time when i kneeled there. I felt like after losing a fight and i didn't even knew why.

Why was i so emotional about my memory returning back to me?

I could still hear Sunghoon's sobs and feel his tears soak into my clothes.
Sunghoon was a bit calmer and i thought he could finally speak.

"Sunghoon please tell me what happened" i mumbled to him one more time

"I don't know where Riki is. He said to others that he is going on a mission and he still didn't return back" Sunghoon got further away from me and started talking and i froze.

I had to process it for a few seconds before saying something back.

"He didn't return?" I asked him with a shaky voice.

"Nobody knows where he is and if he returns, Nara I'm so scared to loose him. I don't want our last memory to be an argument." After this he started crying, he leaned forward and rested his head on my clothes while wiping those tears in them.

And it hit me. If he won't ever return our last memory will be an argument too. I started crying loudly at the thought of that.

It was how i said. My heart still belongs to him.