Sacrifice (Hyunlix)

chapter 26

My loves, y'all won't be disappointed after reading all four chapters 26, 27, 28,29.. I swear. I prepared gifts for y'all in every chapter's end, because I was late to update🤐. I was on vacation this whole August month and ain't no way I can write gay ass fanfic when I'm around my homophobic parents 💀. I should've informed y'all beforehand but this was an unexpected vacation. But I'm back at my hostel now, I won't take this long break for every chapter ♥️.

Hyunjin's pov

"You're such a self centred jerk!!" Yeji deadpanned at me. Have I made a mistake by calling her? Is it the wrong decision to talk to her about felix?

After what felt like an eternity, I finally had some peaceful sleep. As soon as I was in his arms, breathing in the lavender sent. It was too comfortable, I just slept like that without a care. My headache and body pains I had because of my fever suddenly didn't bother me anymore.

But this doesn't solve our problems. I said things to him, that I regret. But then again, I'll probably make the same mistake again. Throwing shit words at people never made me feel this guilty before.

Whenever we had any disagreement, felix was always calm. He never got angry at me. He never gave me that disappointed look like he gazed at me that day. The hurt was visible in his eyes.

But still, like an angel...he took care of  my sick ass. (Again not the literal ass💀). He put up with my crazy tantrums. He even held me like before, like I didn't basically call him an exploiter. At first It's hard to believe for me there are people like felix when I've experienced a shit ton of people who are basically..shit.

Felix's heart is pure, and I know I broke it with my own stupidity.

He woke me up in the morning, prepared breakfast for me and with a tablet and water right beside me. My heart made a hundred flips when I read what he wrote on the sticky note.

Heat it up and eat. Or else I'm gonna sleep on my own bed. Don't come to work and rest well for today. I'll try to get back soon after all these photoshoots....

Take care hyunjin...

The chicken soup was so good. I was content with my delicious lunch. I couldn't stop smiling, replaying yesterday where felix was hella worried about me. The more I think about it, the more I feel happy and unsettled at the same time. I wanted to talk to Minho about it but I can't basically tell him I like his brother now, can I? I mean they're not even close. I don't know how he'll feel about it.

So I decided to talk to yeji. She is good at keeping secrets anyways. This is definitely the right decision.

This is definitely the wrong decision. So wrong.

"How the fuck am I self centred jerk??" I rolled my eyes at her. She, for real got angry at me after confessing that I have feelings for felix and what I said to him. Yeah, I did jump into conclusions, I was confused and angry too, he hid so many things from me. I'm not saying he should tell me everything but whatever Jake said didn't sit right with me.

Anyways, I was kinda being unfair but I wasn't a self centred jerk?? This is the problem with yeji, she's brutally blunt.

"I still don't know how the fuck Minho is putting up with you" I deadpanned. She scoffed at me.

"Idiot, I do understand what you're feeling. I've gone through the same shit as you. But have you ever considered his feelings? What if the help he wanted from Minho is not financially but emotionally?" Her words hit right through my heart. It was painful. Realisation is fucking painful. She must've realised it too, her expression softened after seeing my face. (Video call)