jealousy || harry lewis

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brooklyns pov:

i handnt left my room in a good 2 weeks, but couldn't stand the humiliation of everything, i had ruined my brother and best friend's wedding. it doesn't matter how many times they tell me i didn't ruin anything i still have a sense of guilt built up inside of me.

i've had endless messages from friends but ive not picked my phone up it's been dead for days, i've resulted in reading and watching netflix.

it's currently 2:34pm and talia knocks on my door again, "hey can i come in babe?" she says i tell her yes and she comes and sits on my bed placing a cup of coffee next to me "hey you can't stay in here forever you know?" she says i could tell she was worried about me and to be honest i was too.

"i can" i say continuing to read my book she huffs taking my book "look im worried about you brooklyn you haven't left your room in two weeks" she says softly i try to refrain from crying
"i just can't all those horrible messages and comments are just eating my brain alive" i say thinking back to all the messages i received after the photo got leaked.

@𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐫𝟐𝟕𝟐- 𝐛𝐫𝐨 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐝𝐨 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫😂😂

@𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐟𝐚𝐧𝟐𝟓𝟓𝟒- 𝐞𝐫𝐦 𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐮𝐭😒

@𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐬𝟐𝟐𝟖- 𝐛𝐫𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐨 𝐮𝐠𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐭𝐟 👀

@𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐫𝟐𝟖𝟐𝟖- 𝐢 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐤𝐚𝐧𝐤🤢

@𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐫𝟑𝟖𝟐- 𝐖𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐄🤢🤮

the thoughts drowning me, talia places her hand on mine bringing me back "brooklyn you know none of it is true" she says but i don't believe her
"what if they are talia" i say looking down she shakes her head "no no there is not a second in any universe where it would be true" she says making me smile, the first time ive felt a smile in weeks "there my girl" she says pinching my cheeks making me laugh more as she wrapped her arms around me "thank you tal" i say whilst being smothered with her arms.

"look you can say no but we're going out for dinner tonight and everyone really wants you to come they all miss you so much b" she says i hesitate for a minuite thinking of how much i didn't want to go but then i saw talias face she looked as if she needed me to go i nodded slightly causing her to scream "YOULL GO REALLY??" i nod again as she jumps up and down on my bed
"okok go shower and we'll get ready omg i can't fuckin wait i've missed this" she says hugging me once again.

she leaves the room closing the door i lean back into my bed wondering what i just agreed to, i huffed trying to not to think about it too much as i know i would back out.

i jumped in the shower becaus i must really smell, i washed my hair and body, i got out blow drying my hair, talia came and done my makeup for me making me look at least half decent for tonight.

"hey your gonna be amazing" she says finishing up my powder, "you think" i mumble she nods "absolutely they've missed you so much" it made me smile thinking about how real my friends actually were.

"okay your all done let's get going" tal says standing up and picking up her bag, i follow her outside into the car with simon who had asked me if i was okay like 50 times so far.

the car started driving a weird feeling came upon my stomach and that's when i remembered.

harry.

tonight i was going to see him again after where we left off, i didn't know how to feel about it, a part of me wanted nothin but to see him but the other didn't want to.

in 4 months he made me feel like the happiest girl in the world, but it's not going to be the same and it breaks my heart knowing that.

somone shoved my hand letting me know we was here i nodded steeping out, this was it.

i was so fucking nervous, the closer we got to the reastutrant the more nervous i got.

"okay you ready" talia said squeezing my hand i nodded knowing i definitely was not ready at all
i breathed out before walking in.

"oh my god brooklyn" great screams running up to me everyone looks over at me with shocked faces "you came!!" they all say smiling at me i nodded freya and faith came and gave me a massive hug "are you okay?" faith says holding onto my face i nodded "i think so" she smiled before taking me to my seat.

everyone was either talking to each other or asking me if i was okay.

i looked around to table and there he was staring right back at me, he didn't look too good his eyes had bags under them it looked like he hadn't been sleeping.

my eyes hadn't left his not once i just couldn't.
"hey did you throw your phone away missy?" jj said making me look away "oh uh no it's just been dead for a few days" i laughed he shrugged "oh so it's not just me she's been ignoring then" freya says making me feel bad "im sorry guys ive just been busy" i say trying to redeem myself.

"yeah busy reading and watching Netflix" simon buts in making me kick him under the table
"that's a very reasonable thing to be doing" i save myself making everyone laugh.
i've missed this so much.

we order drinks and i had to go to the bathroom.

i went to the bathroom to do my business and came out, to my surprise harry was standing outside he was stood there awkwardly staring at the ground "harry?" i say i knew he wanted to talk to me he looked up "brooklyn" he says walking towards me "im so sorry" is what we said he sounded so worn out it broke my heart
"harry it's okay it's not your fault" i said i knew how much it was weighing on both of us.

"ive been calling you for weeks brooklyn" he said i looked down in regret i knew i had to talk to him at some point but i wasn't mentally prepared to not yet.
"i know i'm sorry i just needed time" i say twiddling my thumbs he lifts up my chin "don't be sorry i just missed you" he said a small smile creeping up on his face "friends?" i said holding out my pinky finger "yeah friends" his voice broke slightly in the sentence i knew i was ready to start again.

i smiled at him before walking back to the table.

"you okay?" talia says as i sit down "perfect" i say
i saw from the corner of my eye harry sitting back down slightly broken.

i wanted nothing more than to hug him in that moment but u knew i couldn't, not yet.

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