jealousy || harry lewis

36

"you did what!?"

i laughed at freya and faith's faces after i had told them about me harry making up. "we made up." i say shrugging "and made out." talia added in. i rolled my eyes laughing. me talia, freya and faith all met up for a nice coffee and chat.

mainly to talk about harry but it's nice all the girls together for once. faith is usually with olive or talia is busy singing and being married and me and freya are usually with our boyfriends. hanging out with my favourite girls is like a breath of fresh air, i could tell them anything and they'd always feed into my delusions and that's just how they are.

"so are you back together or what?" faith asked.
i stopped for a minute, are we? i mean we haven't actually talked about how we are going to move on from this properly. a part of me knows im still hurt inside from what he did. knowing he had interacted with another girl makes me feel physically ill especially when he hid it behind my back? am i emotionally ready for this?

"brooklyn hello? you okay?" i came back to reality. i nodded and they continued talking.
but i don't know how im going to ever get over this.

as i went to speak my phone went off.

                                 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐡𝐢 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

𝐦𝐞
𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞?

𝐦𝐞
𝐲𝐞𝐬?

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠

𝐦𝐞
𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠?

i slammed my phone down on the table in frustration. why was i so mad at harry for asking if im okay? what is wrong with me. i don't understand why it bothers me so much knowing we can never go back to how we was before.
something inside of me knows i need to talk about it but i just don't know how to say it.

they girls all look at me in confusion and worry.
"are you okay?" i know im not but i cant bring myself to say that. "yeah sorry." i say i dont know where the overwhelming feeling has come from but i suddenly feel so out of it.

"hey i'm gonna go ill see you all later." i say bye to the girls and walk out almost instantly. they all looked at me funny but im sure they will understand soon enough.

                           𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲

𝐦𝐞
𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐞?

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰? 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡

𝐦𝐞
𝐢𝐦 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐨𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲?
ˢᵉᵉᵐ

i ordered myself an uber over to harry's apartment. i knew i had to talk to him about it otherwise it would eat me up for weeks. after everything that has happened in my life the past couple of months i needed a moment to stop and think. meeting everyone, getting heartbroken not once not twice but a whopping three time. harry even beat up a few guys for me? i don't know what my life is.
mabye if everything goes well, who knows mabye everything that happened did in fact happen for a reason.

"thank you." i payed the uber driver and left the car. i walked up the stairs instead of taking the elevator. not by choice of course the elevator was just broken.

as i arrived at his door i took in everything for a second, do i want this? yes. yes i do.

"oh hey your here." harry says opening the door
he pulls me in for a hug while kissing me on the forehead. "are you okay love?" he closes the door taking me into his room. "we need to talk." my words making me feel weary like the hair on the back in my neck had stood up.