jealousy || harry lewis

27

"hey let's get going now" talia said rubbing my arm i nodded standing up "we're gonna start going now everyone we had the best time thank you" talia said to everyone they all nodded there heads standing up to say goodbye i gave faith and freya a hug and olive a little kiss on the cheek.

jj came up to me giving me a tight squeeze "don't become a stranger b" he said making me feel bad for ghosting everyone i laugh "ill try j" i said patting his back.

"bye everyone" i say waving as i walked out.

as we leave the restaurant i looked back one last night at everyone but i couldn't help but notice harry, how drained he looked.

"he's okay brooklyn he's got his friends" talia says making me look away i laughed pretending to be confused "what who?" i say awkwardly laughing

"harry, you were staring at him" she says putting her arm around me as we walked to the taxi station. "i just feel horrible for him" i say the guilt starting to slip in, if i had been careful none of this would have happened.

"he hasn't been himself since, at least that's what simon's told me" she rambled those words making a pit form in my stomach i felt so guilt it was all my fault. "fuck it's all my fault" i mumbled running my fingers through my hair aggressively,
"hey no don't you dare think like that" talia said stopping me i looked up at her and she immediately knew, i still fucking loved him.

"look let's get you home babe" she said lining her arm with mine putting me into the taxi.

we got back home, i took my heels off and went up to bed i needed the sleep.

"goodnight guys" i say walking up the stairs i hear a faint "goodnight b!!" coming from them both.

i closed my door putting on some comfy clothes and turning my lights off. i got into bed and closed my eyes.....but the tiredness must have worn off my eyes were wide open.

i had been tossing and turning for what felt like hours i just could not sleep, my mind drowned with thoughts of harry.
but i couldn't text him, no i can't i couldn't i shouldn't...

i stood up and grabbed my phone immediately pressing on out chats.

                                𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐦𝐞
𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞?

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐲𝐞𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲?

𝐦𝐞
𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐢𝐦 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐲

𝐦𝐞
𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮❤️

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐮 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

i put my phone down grabbing my slippers and waited for him, my palms were sweaty and my heartbeatinh out of my chest, is this the right decision???

*knock knock* i heard i immediately jumped out of my chair and ran to the front door and they're he was, his eyes bloodshot his hair wet from the rain and his breathing so rapid "oh harry" i say pulling him into a tight hug we stood there for a moment engolfed in each other touch.
i let go to look up at his face,  he looked down at me i could tell he rushed here i could feel his heartbeatinh out of his chest.

i pulled him into the kitchen grabbing him a blanket wrapping it around him "thank you" he said his voice cracking i smiled "hot chocolate?" i asked he nodded "please" he said i got out the powder and milk putting it into a pan.

i mixed it and put it in a cup infront of him, "here" i say handing it to him he immediately takes it and sips it i watched him as the heat of the drink wafted in his face.

"harry" i say looking at him, he looked up at me
"im so fucking sorry" i say feeling my stomach turn "i fucked everything up and i made you hurt and i never meant to do that i was just scared of what people would tbink but i don't care about them i just-" i rambled on not taking a single breath i was looking down still rambling when to arms wrapped around me making me stop talking
"stop rambling none of this is your fault brooklyn okay?" he said rubbing my back i took a breath taking in his words "don't you dare apologise i never want you to blame yourself for what social media does ok?" he asked i nodded in his chest.

we pulled away and i smiled at him "ive really missed you harry" i say "ive really fucking missed you too" harry says we stand there in silence for a moment before our arms are back around each other our lips just inches apart from each other i leaned in closing the gap, it felt like forever since ive felt his lips on mine it felt so right in this moment.

i pulled away realising we were still both in the kitchen "harry let's go to my room" i say taking his hand leading him upstairs.

we get to my room and i close my door it wasn't long till his lips were back on mine this time even rougher than before, i unbotten his shirt as he takes my top of me i sit back into my bed he lays with me his hands trailing down my waist his hot breath of my neck kissing down my chest he looks up at me stopping for a moment "do you want this?" he says i nod "so fucking much" i say out of breath he smirks before his kisses went lower..

"i've wanted you like this for so fucking long"