i woke up just in time for the video filming, i put on a basic outfit
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before heading to the studio.
i arrived at the studio, harry was stood outside waiting for me "we're you waiting for me?" i say teasing him "no definitely not" he said kissing my head, i stop him before anyone sees "harry somone could see" i say opening the door to the studio "yeah and?" he says shrugging his shoulders clearly he doesn't understand "harry we need to stay out of sight for now" i say slightly annoyed at his carlessness "why?" he shrugs his shoulder again.
"wdym why, because i don't want the whole world to hate on me saying im just 'pushing my luck' harry ok" at this point i was getting frustrated "no one's gonna say that your just being silly" he says i stop walking to look at him "harry we're not even dating let's not do this rn" placing my hand on his chest to stop him "do what?" i removed my hand "argue" i say before walking away while he just stands still.
i walk into the film room greeting everyone "hiya brooklyn" tobi says giving me a hug "hi tobi" i say slightly annoyed at what just happened with harry.
i get miced up and from the corner of my eye i see harry walking in and sitting down. i felt bad but i know im not reading for everyone to know.
"okay everyone today we are doing a rate the public video" josh says, he explains that members of the public will come in and we would rate them.
we get sat down and they send in the first contestant. "hi im cole, im 24" the guy says you can tell by his aura that he was a sassy man we all decided on a rating "6" we all say we thank him then the next one gets sent it.
we have rated around 7 people and the next one gets sent in, this one was different she was a very pretty girl brunette tall and confident i couldn't even look over at harry i could imagine the way he was looking at her.
"hi im sally im 22" she says smiling with perfect teeth, my insecurities eating me alive. the boys huddled together telling each other there opinions i was picking out everything she had that i didnt....
"helloo earth to brooklyn" vik says slightly shaking me out of my trance "what oh sorry" i say looking over to see everyone staring at me including harry "what do you rate her?" vik says "i- oh uh a 10" i say "ok that's good we all said that" tobi says looking back over to the girl.
i look back over to harry who's eyes were fixed on mine i quickly looked back over at the girl. "ok sally your a 10" jj says "aw thanks guys" she says winking weird.
once the video was done i went to get my mic taken off, when ethan comes over to me "hey you okay?" he says "yeah why?" "you just looked really sad" ethan says "yeah i'm fine" i say smiling at him, he nods before walking away. the lady unmics me, i hear all the boys laughing and talking so i looked over to see what was so funny, i did not expect sally to be standing with them.
she was speaking to them all making them laugh, harry was there laughing his head off i mean she can't be that fucking funny?
i walked over standing next to simon "oh hi there" she says i look up to her smiling "hello" i say "who are you i don't think ive ever seen you before today?" she says with her perfect fucking teeth "oh im uh brooklyn minter simon's sister" i say pointing at simon she nodded her head smiling "guess he took all the height aha" sally said laughing at her own fucking joke i fake laughed, "haha" i hear somone laugh it was harry he was standing right next to her.
i look over at them both now, they continued talking i could feel the jealousy boiling. "simon im going home" i say to him as i get my bag "okay bye" he says nodding. i had to get out i couldn't fucking stand staying any longer.
as i'm driving home i get a text.
𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐮 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞?
𝐦𝐞 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡
𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐤 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐮𝐛 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐞
𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞?
𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐲𝐞𝐬 𝐮 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠?
𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐤 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡
𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐮 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲?
𝐦𝐞 𝐲𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲
𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲
i rolled my eye knowing harry and shelley are going to be together at the pub i quickly put on a nicer outfit before getting back in the car to go to this pub.
i arrive walking in seeing everyone at a table all talking "brooklyn hey you made it" jj says standing up to hug me "yeah i need a drink" i said i scanned around to find a seat.... what the fuck harry and sally were sitting together talking.
i decided to just sit next to tobi ordering myself a vodka coke, "you okay?" tobi says looking concerned "yeah fine" i say my eyes fixed on them "you sure u look like ur gonna murder somone" tobi says waving a hand in my face
"what yeah sorry just stressed" i say looking away.
a few minutes pass everyone is talking and laughing abut videos
"hey come with me a minute" somone says tapping my shoulder i look down to see harry's hand on my shoulder i stand up and follow him outside. "look about earlier im sorry" he says i cross my arms due to the cold weather "i know i just want to keep it low for a while i mean we're not even together" i say "stop saying that" he say making my look up at him "saying what?" i snap back
"saying we're not even together" i don't understand what he is trying to imply "but we're not harry?" questioning him "i know but it makes it sound like you don't want to be" he says quietly "i never said that, u know i want to be but we need to take it slow" explaining my feelings
"i know brooklyn but why don't you want people knowing i dont understand" he snaps
"becaus harry it's gonna ruin us people are always going to try get in between people i just want to stay in our own bubble without other people opinions on us?" i say my voice slightly breaking.
"yeah exactly people are always gonna judge so why can't we just live our life i don't care what they think!!!!" he says
"harry i promise one day we can but i just want to live just me and you for a while in our own private life don't you understand?" asking him he just shakes his head "no i don't understand" is all he said before walking back into the pub.
i understand he wants people to know especially our friends but i just want to wait a little more.
i didn't know how to feel in that moment i couldn't cry nor go back to laughing with our friends, so i just went home.
the whole uber home i fought to urge to text harry and tell him im sorry but i just couldn't it didn't feel right.
