Xiao zhan awake after all night scream in nightmare, he feel few peoples catch his hands and try to calm him down yet the fear still there haunted him and make him lost more deeper in his fear to make it more worst. Xiao zhan feel dirty and shame of him self after remember all torture that happen to him inside that house. he awake in panic and breathless and get more panic realize his pajama is different from what he wear yesterday. he awake and try to crawl to bathroom after fell down from hospital bed. after few minutes Xiao zhan manage to sit on the bathroom floor and lean him self on the wall after lock the door, Xiao zhan try to stand up and turn o the shower, water start soak him and just like that he sit under the shower lean on the wall while both of his hands start rubbing hard on his body and feet like crazy. the warm water soak all his body and he didn't stop hard rub until his arms and body start become red. just like that he start crying in mess. he ignored when hear knock on the bathroom door and start choking him self with the bathroom curtain try to kill him self. he saw someone rush inside when he already laid on the floor almost lost his conscious. he let darkness take him away.
Wang yibo rush inside the bathroom after try to knock and finally break the door only to found Xiao zhan try to kill him self by choke him self with the shower curtain. he quickly pull Xiao zhan inside his embrace that already lost his conscious. "no please no... You can't do this..." Wang yibo quickly laid Xiao Zhan on bed and push the emergency button calling for nurses help. If he only late few minutes maybe they will lost Xiao zhan forever.
just in case to avoid Xiao zhan try the same way to kill him self, this time they have to tied up Xiao zhan on bed and always let one of the nurse to stay at Xiao zhan's bedside. Xiao zhan did lost his mind completly, he didin't feel hungry and never want to eat or drink. he didn't talk even only one word like completly lost his voice, only hear him scream in pain while try to pulling out both of his wrist from the bedside bondage. the psychiatrist doctor come try to talk to Xiao zhan everyday but he just ignore and try to release his hands and kick away the blanket. until that day Wang yibo lost his mind and slap him harder to make him stop going crazy. "enough!! i know what happen to you, but that wasn't your fault! you have to face it, i will help you and all of us will help you. you hear me?!" Wang yibo yell and in angry pull Xiao zhan's cloths up but then he regret it when Xiao zhan start sobbing. "you won't understand... no one will understand...i'm dirty and its hurt like hell..." Xiao zhan crying out while choking on his own tears. "why me? why always me? i shouldn't stay alive from first... if only i died in that car accident...it won't happen to me....he won't able to hurt me like that....i'm dirty...he raped me like dog and you tell me to act like nothing happen?! You know what happen to me? you saw the video too?! then why i should stay alive after you saw it too?!" Xiao zhan cry and scream in anger.
Wang yibo saw how broken Xiao zhan infront of him, so hopeless and dying try to kill him self. but he couldn't let Xiao Zhan kill him self or end his life like before. Wang yibo take deep breathe and release Xiao zhan's wrist from bedside while security and nurses stay alert if Xiao Zhan fight back and try to run away. they lock the door from inside and lock the bathroom door too so the same thing won't happen again. just like they though, Xiao Zhan fight back and push away Doctor Wang but they step back when Doctor Wang stop them. Wang yibo pull Xiao Zhan in his embrace and hug him tight even Xiao Zhan still screaming and hit Wang yibo's back with his fist. "Let me go!! go away!! stay away from me!" Xiao Zhan crying out in desperate. "is ok, you can cry it out, you can hit me, you can push me away but i won't let you face this alone. i'm here... i'm sorry we are really late to safe you... i'm sorry, please forgive me. it shouldn't be like this." Wang yibo said it weakly almost whipering, tears wet his cheeks feel regret when watching Xiao Zhan broken like now infront of him. "You are not dirty, it wasn't your fault. No one want it happen, it was an accident... you are safe now. i promise i won't happen again, i promise i will always by your side." Wang yibo said while let Xiao Zhan hit on his back. "Go away! don't touch me!" Xiao zhan scream in panic while try to push away Wang yibo that still hugging him tightly in his embrace.
Wang yibo they didn't have choice except always put Xiao zhan to sleep under medication IV drips and injection except when time to awake for eat and drink at breakfast time and lunch time. They didn't want Xiao Zhan try to kill him self again like before so they have to stay in turn inside his room when he stay awake. Xiao zhan always aware when anyone stay near him try to touch him. his trauma even haunted him in his nightmare everynight. Wang yibo sigh each time he awake when hear Xiao Zhan whimpering in his sleep, crying and plead to stop hurt him. he know how hurt that trauma hit on Xiao Zhan but he really didn't know how to heal that broken soul from this kind of trauma after watch the cctv video when Xiao Zhan get abused everyday in that house. under the medication Xiao zhan getting weak to fight back or runaway. Wang yibo know such hard medication bad for Xiao zhan body and make it healing more slow than it should be but only when Xiao zhan lost his energy to move and fight back, they could manage keep Xiao Zhan under their control and treatment without need to tied Xiao zhan's wrists and feet to the bedside like before. but nurse have to help Xiao zhan holding on the glass for drink because Xiao Zhan's hands several time lost his grip and drop the glass on the floor. Xiao Zhan never talk anymore, he never said anything since that day he know they start to make him sleep more under medication and feel really weak like lost all his energy to move and do anything. he choose to sleep more and eat when they forced him to open his mouth when feeding him. Xiao zhan hear how Wang Yibo told them not to use feeding tube but feeding him instead give him injection to eat from tube.
No one will understand how hurt the pain except the one who feel it, no one will know how scary the nightmare except the one who dreamed it. Wang yibo try to safe Xiao zhan's life first before he could safe Xiao zhan's soul and mind. He really hope it wasn't too late to make Xiao zhan's getting better and heal from all this kind of trauma. While in other hospital, Yu Ching smirk in weird while watching the video record in his phone like watching some porn and he looking at his unconscious twin that still laid in coma state. "He is so hot right? when he whimpering like that it make me turn on. too bad didn't taste him before. but someday i will. hmmm... maybe soon. he is an awesome toy. his face when horny and crying make me want to play him all night long." Yu ching laugh after whispering those dirty words to his twin Yubin.
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Lost Heart
FanfictionWhen you already lost everyone and everything around you, then you will start scared to have feeling. you let it numb till everything look like heartless. but then when you did it, people though you are ghost without heart.
