Lost Heart

Chapter 25 : Lie

Yu bin afraid if Xiao zhan out of sudden remember everything, even Yu bin feel sad Xiao zhan didn't remember anything include him self, but that is better than saw how broken xiao zhan try to end his life because the cruel fate that happen in his life. "Yu bin, what is your plan? now Xiao zhan lost his memories and you know well someday he will remember it all. did you plan to hide the fact from him?" Wang yibo ask when realize Yu bin begin add some lie when Xiao zhan ask about him self. Yu bin told Xiao zhan get hit by bus in front of the hospital, Yu bin told Xiao zhan both of Xiao zhan's parents already pass away few years ago and leave Xiao zhan as orphan in the family, he lie about Xiao zhan identity. he didn't mention anything about Xiao zhan's aunt and uncle. When Xiao zhan ask what is his job all these time, Yu bin said Xiao zhan work as part time worker in mini market but now already lost his job because sleep in coma when get sick last month before the car accident. "Zhan ge better didn't remember anything about his past, he might look lost and confuse now, but its better than saw him dying like before. Doctor Wang, I know this is not allowed but i really can't face another days saw Zhan ge get tied up on bed and saw him everyday wish to end his life." Yu bin try holding back his tears when they talk outside Xiao zhan room after make sure Xiao zhan fell a sleep on his bed. "But still... he will remember it someday and fake memories from you will make him lost him self more. the psychiatrist already warn us not to make any fake memories for Xiao zhan." Wang yibo warn worriedly. "until that time i will make sure Zhan ge life a better life, i won't let him dying like before anymore. even his memories now half of it is fake but its much better than before." Yu bin stubborn to keep his plan, "But Yu bin...Xiao zhan might get hurt more..." Wang yibo try to stop Yu bin plan, "its enough Doctor Wang, Zhan ge is not your only one patient, you still have lot of job to do. Zhan ge is my friend and my brother too, if anything happen to him it will become my responsibility." Yu bin almost yell and he quickly wipe away his tears while leave Wang yibo outside Xiao zhan's room and close the door. "i just hope you didn't regret it Yu bin." Wang yibo sigh and saw sleeping Xiao zhan from the window before leave.

Xiao zhan still get therapy treatment in hospital, they saw Xiao zhan always daydreaming like thinking on something but he only smile bitterly when nurse ask did he feel hurt somewhere. "Xiao zhan, you need to squish the ball to turn on the light." nurse Chen yi sigh when Xiao zhan just holding on the light squish ball in his hands while daydreaming. "Nurse Chen Yi, may i know how long i sleep in coma?" Xiao zhan ask almost whispering after saw Yu bin leave them. "hmm? i don't know but you sleep quite long, Xiao zhan you really didn't remember anything?" nurse Chen yi ask sadly. Xiao zhan shook his head slowly, he try to awake from bed but feel really dizzy for while and feel like almost vomit. "Hei you have to be careful." Chen yi help Xiao zhan to sit on bed and fix the blanket after take away the therapy squish ball. "am i always like this? why i get hit by bus in front of this hospital?" Xiao zhan ask curiously but Nurse Chen yi really confuse how to give Xiao zhan the answer after they know Yu bin avoid them to let Xiao zhan know the truth. "Zhan ge you can ask me that, nurse Chen yi just a nurse at hospital, she didn't know much about you." Yu bin said while walking inside the room and look unhappy because Nurse Chen Yi almost break his plan. Chen Yi quickly leave before Xiao zhan ask more and make Yu bin angry at her.

"Zhan Ge, are you ok?" Yu bin ask while place the foods in each bowl from the lunch box that he bought from canteen in hospital. Yu bin saw Xiao zhan a bit pale and massage his forehead. "Dizzy, Yu bin what happen to me? Why both of my hands and legs feel so weak all the time?" Xiao zhan ask curiously and let Yu bin feeding him. "Is ok, Zhan Ge you will get better soon. You just sleep too long and your nerve need time back to normal." Yu bin smile and continue to feed Xiao zhan their lunch. Xiao zhan looking at Yu bin and sigh, "You didn't hide anything from me right? Why you always look angry when i ask nurse or Doctor in this hospital?" Xiao zhan ask Yu bin and make Yu bin sigh deeply. "In this hospital they are just Doctors and nurses Zhan Ge, they really didn't know anything about you or your past. If you need to ask anything about your life, you can ask me anytime." Yu bin smile and once again he lie in front of Xiao zhan.

"Xiao zhan's condition getting better, he still couldn't remember anything, but if he out of sudden get flashback you have to stay around him to make sure he stay safe Yu bin. I know, we didn't have right to reveal the fact to Xiao zhan but soon he will find out about it. What will you do if he remember it all? You know he will feel more broken if know all these time you lie to him." Wang yibo try to explain to Yu bin after they done check on Xiao zhan condition and Wang Yibo decide to talk to Yu bin inside his office that day. "If that day come, then i will try to stay beside him and make sure Zhan Ge stay alive and safe instead of saw him feel dying like before. Doctor Wang, You know well why i choose this way. Zhan Ge always get hurt and i can't do anything to help him that time. But now i won't let him get hurt anymore." Yu bin smile bitterly because actually he also afraid if Xiao zhan will regain back his memories and make Xiao zhan feel broken again like before.

After a month since Xiao zhan awake and lost his memories, Yu bin prepare to bring back Xiao zhan to his house and leave the hospital. Xiao zhan's legs still to weak to stand and walk too long and it make them told him to sit on his wheelchair. Even Xiao zhan's condition getting better but he still look try to found trace and clue about his past, he feel Doctor Wang know something but that young Doctor never talk anything about it to him. But sometime Doctor Wang share story about his another patient, that mute and actually popular Young Idol. When Xiao zhan ask who is that patient, Doctor Wang only smile and said, that is secret. Doctor Wang told Xiao zhan, that his mute patient is popular among the nurses because that mute patient really handsome and they even named him Unique mannequin. Doctor Wang said, that mute patient is unlucky, because fate is too cruel write destiny for him. Somehow Xiao zhan feel sad when Doctor Wang said that mute patient several time try to suicide and kill him self but failed. But Doctor Wang stop talk about his mute patient when Yu bin appear in Xiao zhan's room and Xiao zhan looking at phone in his hands that Doctor Wang give to him this morning. "You can call me if you feel something wrong or get dizzy out of sudden. I save my number as Quick call in number 1 and Yu bin's number at 2. Don't worry you can call me anytime and i will call you back as soon as possible when you need to talk or sharing to kill the time." Wang yibo's words make Xiao zhan feel confuse but he still take the phone just in case if his painful headache back again.

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Note : this chapter get delayed update this morning because i feel it wasn't good enough for update. Sorry if you get the notification but still can't read it before.
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-Lin-