Lost Heart

Chapter 15 : Lets Talk

That night Xiao zhan wake up and he whimpering in pain after he fell from bed today. He try to tearing up the bandage on his mouth that place to keep feeding tube didn't move "Don't pull it out, it will hurt." Wang yibo's voice make Xiao zhan look at his bedside and he sigh when realize doctor Wang sit near his bed. Xiao zhan look hopeless but he actually feel glad that young doctor is fine now atleast after they found him unconscious at the bathroom. "Did your throat still hurt?" Wang yibo ask while fix the bandage on Xiao zhan's mouth that sealing the tube. Xiao zhan nod weakly. "Sorry, you get hurt because safe me. I will pull it out for you but you have to promise to eat after the feeding tube get uninstall. You understand right?" Wang yibo carefully ask just to make sure Xiao zhan didn't close him self again. He smiling when saw Xiao zhan nod again.

Xiao zhan hold his breathe and release it with Wang yibo sign so when the tube get pull out so it won't feel hurt. Yet it still make Xiao zhan choke, coughing in pain. Nurse bring water and straw for Xiao zhan so he can drink water after the feeding tube get removed. Wang yi bo smile when realize Xiao zhan staring at him worriedly. "I'm fine, i'm just still dizzy this morning because of my fever but i'm ok now." Wang yi bo explain but he sigh when saw Xiao zhan stare blank on the wall again. "Xiao zhan you really plan to ignore all of us again?" Wang yi bo pat tenderly on Xiao zhan's hand but Xiao zhan close his eyes instead of nod or shook his head. Xiao zhan pretend to sleep and ignore, atleast he is fine now and only slight fever, better ignore this doctor now, he better go back home for rest than stay here with me. But when Xiao zhan open his eyes again when he feel someone turn off the light, instead of empty room he saw the young doctor sleeping on the couch beside his bed.

Xiao zhan still feel sore on his shoulder when wake up this morning, nurse pat him tenderly to wake him up so they could feed him his breakfast after they find note from Doctor wang, that Xiao zhan feeding tube already get removed by him last night. Stubborn Xiao zhan still refuse open his mouth and ignore the nurses that come to feed him his porridge. Even when they forced open his mouth, he didn't eat it. "Xiao zhan be good please, you need eat breakfast first so you can take your medicine." Nurse Chen Yin plead but Xiao zhan just ignore them all the time. Even he refuse to eat but he didn't push away nurses that trying forced to open his mouth because he didn't want them get hurt. After almost half an hour they finally give up and call doctor to report about Xiao zhan that still refuse to eat.

Xiao zhan back to sleep after they left him alone, but then he feel someone pat tenderly on his cheeks. "Wake up, Xiao zhan you promised me you will eat if i help you to pull out your feeding tube last night." Wang yi bo said while keep pat on his patient cheek and he smiling saw Xiao zhan open his eyes lazily. Xiao zhan just sigh, if last night his throat didn't feel hurt because of his feeding tube, he will stay to ignored all of them like before. Xiao zhan bite his lips to holding back the pain when Doctor Wang pull him to sit on his bed and put few pillow on his back. Xiao zhan lazily eat porridge that nurse bring to his room again while he saw doctor Wang standing in front of him watching him eating just to make sure Xiao zhan keep his promised.

Wang yi bo put smartphone that he give to Xiao zhan before on Xiao zhan's lap and make both of Xiao zhan's hands to holding on it. "Lets talk, you didn't tell me what happen when you get kidnap. We need to know so we can help you to fight them back. Xiao zhan, you know what i mean right?" Wang yi bo explain and point his finger to the smartphone on Xiao zhan hands. *just please help me to die, all won't be hurt like now. All happen because i'm still alive.* Wang yi bo read chat that Xiao zhan sent and he saw tears fell from xiao zhan's eyes. He know Xiao zhan must be hurt hiding something in his mind. "Stop blaming your self like this, i don't know what did they said to you but you stay alive until now not a sin and not your fault. If you die to solve their problem then please stay alive to fix it all before you decide to end your life. Listen to me, don't use your condition now as reason to end your life." Wang yi bo almost shout just because he didn't know anymore how to cheer up the hopeless soul in front of him now. *I can't talk,can't walk, even if i stay alive i'll become burden to other* Xiao zhan wipes away tears that blur his eyes before type on the smartphone chat. "Then don't be a burden, you have to try your best to fight back your fate, if you feel this life is unfair to you then show them what is fair. If you give up then you are worst than loser. Atleast don't waste my effort to safe your life, to pull you out from that worst fate. Xiao zhan, you have to pay me back and i'm not allowed you to die before you really payback my effort." Wang yi bo strickly said his will to make Xiao zhan realize not everyone wish him to die.

Wang yibo feel guilty because he make Xiao zhan crying silently after hear all his words but he really didn't want saw Xiao zhan give up again. "Cry as much as you wish, but after this you have to dried those tears from your eyes. Xiao zhan, remember that i ever told you about, In this life the one that will love you all the time, the one that will care for you until your last breathe more better than the others is your own self. If you didn't love your own self, then how can wish for someone else to care and love you? If you give up now then tomorrow hope will die too?. You have to remember this, don't die just because death maybe sound easy but God write different fate for you, God must be have reason behind all of this right? Why not wait and see?" Wang yi bo carefully pat on Xiao zhan's shoulder. Xiao zhan sigh deeply try to stop his tears keep falling, its hurt too much to share but hurt too much to keep, slowly it feel so dying inside, is that true there are still have thing named as happiness around? Xiao zhan looking at both of Doctor Wang hands that holding on his hands now, this life is really a joke, his own family relative try to kill him but a stranger infront of him try to save him again and again.