Lost Heart

Chapter 24 : White Paper

The Emergency room finally could rest after in panic situation for more than 2 hours to save two patients in one time. Both of Xiao zhan and Yu bin went out safely from surgery room after Doctors and nurses save them. Yu bin still laid unconscious but his condition is getting better, nothing dangerous except injury in his head near his left ear. The wound might leave small scar and both of his arms full of bruises, wounded after get hit by bus and rolling on the road. But Xiao zhan head get hit hard on the road when the bus hit them, blood clots start appear when they rush him inside the surgery room. Xiao zhan manage pass the surgery safely but still unconscious even after the anesthetic wear off. All of them really worry because Xiao zhan condition getting weaker after surgery to remove the blood clots in his head. It make Wang yibo keep checking on his condition each hour in Intensive care room. Yu bin awake the next day after the accident, he feel sad when they told him Xiao zhan still unconscious until now in Intensive care room because he get internal bleeding inside his head when they get hit by the bus.

"Zhan Ge, please wake up. They told me you already can talk. Please open your eyes. Look, i'm fine now so please open your eyes." Yu bin plead while crying carefully holding on Xiao zhan's right hand. "you have to wake up Zhan Ge, i promise i won't let you alone. please open your eyes Zhan Ge." Yu bin sobbing and he quickly wipe away tears from his eyes when suddenly he feel Xiao zhan's right hand moving a bit in his hands grip. "Doctor Wang....Zhan Ge...he moving his right hand." Yu bin said happily while let Wang yibo check on Xiao zhan's condition. they all waiting when saw Xiao zhan's eyes that still closing moving try to open his eyes lids. they saw Xiao zhan's struggling to open his eyes and breathing with the oxygen tube that still attach into his throat. they rush to check on Xiao zhan's condition when out of sudden long beeping sound feel the room and Xiao zhan look try hard choking  to catch his breathe. Wang yi bo take deep breathe after manage to make Xiao zhan's breathing again after they almost lost him in front of their eyes. Xiao zhan get seizure attack when wake up because of trauma on his head, he failed to catch on his breathe when try to open his eyes and awake, but now he already breathing with ventilator aid on his face. "you already awake? did your feel hurt somewhere?" Wang yibo ask carefully after saw Xiao zhan open both of his eyes completely and looking around wondering. Xiao zhan nod weakly while still laid on bed, "my head...hurt." Xiao zhan answer almost sound like whispering behind the ventilator mask. "Where am i?" Xiao zhan's question make both of Wang yibo and Yu bin get shock  but they try to stay calm. "Zhan Ge, you are in hospital now, we get an accident in front of this hospital two days ago." Yu bin try to explain and holding back on his tears. "Who are you? did you know me?" Xiao zhan ask weakly try to holding back the pain in his head. "Zhan Ge, you are not joking right? I'm Yu bin, your assistant, your friend...please don't tell me you didn't remember me..." Yu bin sobbing couldn't holding back his tears anymore.

They find out Xiao zhan get amnesia, he can't remember anything include his own name. Wang yibo call the psychiatrist in their hospital to check on xiao zhan condition and Yu bin almost faint when hear the resul. "Basicly Xiao zhan can't remember anything, now his mind is white paper, he really lost and confuse too. he can talk now but his emotion is still unstable because he didn't know why he feel sad, he said he feel heavy inside his chest. even now Xiao zhan's mind is like blank white paper, but doesn't mean anyone allowed to write new memories for him. that will be make him stress and confuse when he remember back his memories. we found out that both of his hands grip is a bit lose, he couldn't holsing tight anything too long because he will drop it. so please be careful and be patient on Xiao zhan. his recovery might take time and don't let him stay alone too long because he might lost his mind if get the flash back of his own memories." the Psychiatrist explain before let them meet Xiao zhan that now already sleeping inside the counseling room after exhausted try to answer all questions to check on his mental condition.

meanwhile Xiao zhan half awake after the psychiatrist leave him alone in the counseling room and told him to wait. Xiao zhan sigh and didn't know why he feel really sad and broken when he awake without remember anything. why all of them really worry he will get hurt? why they look really shock when he ask them about his identity? those questions make Xiao zhan sigh more deeply, he really couldn't remember any single thing about his past. that young man that call him self as Yu bin, why he sobbing so sadly? did something happen in the past until Yu bin feel so sad like that? Xiao zhan try to sit on bed and take deep breathe, he try to find some water to drink after feel really dry on his throat and lips. Xiao zhan saw a jar of water on his bed side, he try to pour some water into the glass but then out of sudden his hands give up and drop the jar that crash immediately on the ground. the crash sound make Wang yibo and Yu bin rush in hurry into the room, they saw Xiao zhan chocking to breathe while both of his hands holding on his own head. Yu bin rush to Xiao zhan's bedside and pull Xiao zhan into his embrace. "is ok, is ok Zhan Ge, you will be fine...you will be fine." those words like magic chant that keep repeat try to calm down Xiao zhan that still in pain. they realize that glass shattered sound must be remain Xiao zhan into his trauma. "its hurt... my head... its hurt..." Xiao zhan panting and start calm down a bit after Yu bin hug him tight and keep try to make him stay calm. Wang yibo ask the nurse to call cleaning service to clean the mess and he feel sad too when saw how fragile Xiao zhan in front of him that still sobbing in pain, in Yu bin's embrace. Wang yibo pour another glass of water after nurse bring the new jar of water, "here drink this, you must be thirsty right?" Wang yibo give a glass of water to Xiao zhan, and Yu bin help him to holding on it. "slowly...Zhan Ge drink it slowly." Yu bin warn when Xiao zhan take a big gulp of water in his first gulp. Xiao zhan nod and drink it all, he ask for one more glass and stop drink after the second glass.