Lost Heart

Chapter 34 : Remember and Forget

Today already one week they stay at Guarda, beautiful village at Swiss and Xiao Zhan still close him self and Wang yibo several time try not to get angry because Xiao Zhan eat less and never talk to any of them, he only nod or shake his head. Xiao Zhan try to walk with his own feet and refuse to use wheelchair but he didn't dare walk out from their house door even they several time told him no one know him in that place and no one will hurt him. Wang Yi Xian leave both of his son Wang Yibo and Xiao Zhan in that village because he have go back to China today. he give vitamin IV drip for Xiao Zhan and told him to drink his medicine on time. "Xiao Zhan, i will take flight back to china tonight, you stay here with my son Wang Yibo. stay here as long as you wish until you ready to back to your normal life, you can do it right?" Wang Yi Xian said while insert the IV drip needles into Xiao Zhan's left wrist. Xiao Zhan didn't nod this time, he only looking down at his bandage on his left wrist. "some memories are worth to remember but some of it sometime we have to forget it. not everything bad happen to us because we deserve it but some of it happen because of accident and those is out of reach from our hands. you are still young, you still have lot of time to grow up and see this world. don't end it hopeless just because of some people that try to ruin your life. stand up after you fell down, wipes out your tears after cry as much as you wish untill your pain feel much better.  i know you hear me and i know you can do it too. so please don't hurt your self again okay?" Wang Yi Xian smile while tenderly pat on Xiao Zhan's hands that he holding on while he looking carefuly at Xiao Zhan's face that look still pale. "You have to give him Vitamin IV drip every morning after breakfast, he still look so pale and make sure Xiao Zhan eat his meals and pills everyday ok? make sure you make him fell in deep sleep before you go to sleep at night. don't forget to call me if you need help." Wang yi xian warn his son before take his bags and hug his son in his embrace. "if he try to hurt him self again you have to stop him as soon as possibble. now there still have possible for him to think about suicide again, his eyes still look blankly like lost himself somewhere." Wang yi xian remain his son about Xiao Zhan's condition and walk out from that house.

after his father leave them in that house, Wang yibo clean the floor and Xiao Zhan bedroom with vacum cleaner. he help Xiao Zhan wake up from wheelchair to sit on bed and change his pajama after Xiao Zhan take bath by him self. Wang yibo several time warn him to done his bath and not too long stay inside bathroom just to avoid Xiao Zhan try to hurt him self inside bathroom.  Xiao Zhan never said anything just stay mute with nod and shake his head to answer Wang yibo. the same patern happen until few days before he found Xiao Zhan shaking while sit on his bed after awake screaming from nightmare. Wang yi bo try to calm him down but it failed and Xiao Zhan look scared at him like he didn't recognize him. Xiao Zhan run outside the bedroom and try to open the main door in panic and he hit his own head on the door after realize the door was still locked. "stop it!" Wang yibo yell while try to stop Xiao Zhan hit him self but instead of listening Xiao Zhan push him away and struggling hard to reach the door knob. they fighting and Xiao Zhan's crying try to push away Wang yibo from him. in the end Wang yibo manage to tied both of Xiao Zhan's hands with kitchen towel and he rush grab another towel and shove it inside Xiao Zhan's mouth to avoid him bite his own tongue because out of sudden Xiao Zhan get seizure attack. 

Wang yibo call his father about Xiao Zhan's condition after the seizure attack stop and Xiao Zhan fainted in exhausted. under his father advice he laid Xiao zhan back on his own bed and release the tied up hands. Wang yibo change Xiao zhan's pajama that already soak in sweat and take out bondage belt from drawer to tied both of Xiao Zhan's wrist and legs to the bed side. after make sure all bondage is tight enough to hold on both of Xiao Zhan's wrist and legs on bed, he start intubation on Xiao Zhan to install the feeding tube on Xiao Zhan's mouth and oxygen tube on his nose. Wang yi xian advice his son to put Xiao Zhan back on sleeping for few days until it safe for him to awake again. Wang yibo install the IV drip and inject sleeping liquid into Xiao Zhan's IV drip and he almost faint too after try to calm self in panic saw how XiaoZhan's lost him self tonight. "tomorrow Doctor Lee my friend will visit to help you. for this few days just put him into deep sleep until we find way to calm him down from his trauma." Wang yi xian phone call make Wang yibo sigh hopeless after he told his father Xiao Zhan lost his mind and try to hurt him self like lost his mind. Wang yibo hide knife in the kitchen and lock all drawer just to avoid something wrost happen.