February 2016
I was studying in the dorm, PN on my books as I studied Maths.
I didn't pay attention as much as I needed to in class, so I studied a lot in my free time to catch up.
I didn't pay anywhere near enough attention in any of my classes.
I was at radiation therapy and therapy a lot too, I didn't want to go downhill in terms of my mental health again.
It was finally starting to get better before she died; I wasn't prepared to let all the work be unraveled so soon.
My cancer wasn't getting any better, but it wasn't getting worse either, so that was a win, right?
I sighed, closing my books and flopped onto my bed, sorrow consuming me as I thought about what to do.
Usually I'd be taking care of Min-Seo.
But even she wasn't here anymore.
Jungkook came over, pulling me up, hugging me, letting me cry into him.
"Yn-ie, look what I found." Jungkook Oppa said as he showed me his phone.
I looked at the screen, it was a video of me when I first came to Big Hit.
I was so much more nervous and anxious, you could practically see the trauma in 12-year-old-me.
I had come so far in terms of mental health, the cuts and bruises on 12-year-old-me's face were horrendous.
"Yn!" Namjoon called out as he entered the dorm, my head perking up to see where Namjoon was as I wiped tears off my cheeks.
"It's for you." He said as he handed me my phone.
"Yn-ah! How are you, my dear? I haven't talked to you in so long! You should come see me dear! Tell me everything!" My Poh Poh rambled, speaking way faster than I was used to.
My Poh Poh was speaking Cantonese as that's what my family speaks but we can all speak Mandarin since that's the official language of China.
"I know, Poh Poh, I'll come visit you soon!" I promised, speaking Cantonese. "How did you even get my number?"
"I'm Asian, dear! I saw you on TV the other day!" Poh Poh said. "I wasn't expecting to see you on Chinese TV! I usually have to have Ka-Kin help me get it on TV."
Ka-Kin was my cousin, my Eomma's sister's son. He would be my age by now.
"Tell me about those boys." Poh Poh enthused.
"What about them?" I asked. "They're just friends."
"Come visit me!" she demanded, and I laughed at her assertiveness.
"I'm busy with work right now, but I'll visit you soon." I promised.
"Visit me now!" Poh Poh said. "I haven't seen you in 11 fucking years!"
"I know Poh Poh, don't worry, I'll visit you as soon as I can." I said.
"Why won't you visit me?" Poh Poh asked, I could imagine her cute half-jokingly half-serious pout.
"Things are really tight right now. And busy too, but I promise you I'll visit you as soon as I can." I promised.
"You better!" Poh Poh said, and I chuckled.
"Yn, your radiation therapy is soon." Namjoon told me and I nodded in response.
"Talk to you later, Poh Poh." I said.
"Yes! I'll see you when you finally visit!" Poh Poh said.
I hung up, leaving my phone on my bed.
"Who was that?" Namjoon asked.
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