BREAK 4 ME (CARRINGTON DIARIES 5)( Completed)

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MIA
My mind was jumbled as Banks talked.How did he find out?Who told him?

Banks grab my cheek and forced me to look at him."Look me in my eye and tell me what you are going to do".

I glare at him and say "Yes.I was going to leave you.I was going to break up with you after graduation".

"What??Why didn't you tell me! Im your best friend Mia"Olivia says."It's an opportunity of a lifetime Banks!You just expect to throw it away?For you?".

"For US!"he yells."For Us Mia.US!".

He lets me go and clenches his teeth."If you just talked to me we could've worked this out! Liverpool wasn't my dream.It was you! It was wherever you were!Don't you get that?".

My eyes start to water as Banks chuckles softly.An emotionless look appears on his face and says "I'm sick of this".

He kicks our table and we all gasp."Is always Banks help me!Banks save me!Banks do this for me!Banks this,Banks that!"He yells.

He looks at his cousins disgusted and says "I've been the bad guy our whole lives.Im the psychopath that you all give your dirty work to!".

"Lie for me, Banks!
Cheat for me,Banks!
Steal for me,Banks!
BREAK FOR ME BANKS!".

Tears run down his face as he looks at me."Fuck you"."Banks you can't expect Mia to just clear out her dream-".

"FUCKING HELL JUST TALK TO ME!WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR YOU  ALL TO TALK ME!?!AND AM I SUCH A MONSTER SO DISGUSTING THAT YOU CANT TALK TO ME?!?I HAVE FEELINGS TOO!I HAVE EMOTIONS TOO! ALL YOU ALL DO IS JUST TREAT ME LIKE IM UNLOVABLE!".

We all wince at his harsh words.All of us too silent to make a move.
none of speaking up as he stands there.
Because he was right.
Banks was right.

All our lives we treated him like a flight risk.It never dawned on us that Banks was human too.That he too had emotions that none of us understand.

And even when we started dating,I still kept a distance from him.Because I was scared of how I would break him.

Jasmine starts tearing up as Banks shakes his head."It's so draining trying to make an effort for all of you.Im done".

He glares at me and says "Let me just solve this hard problem that you have,Mia.We're done.There!You're free of a psychopath like me!You can live your life and fall in love!".

"Banks we both know that there is no one I want to be with other than you".

He leans forward and glares at me."Then die alone.I don't care anymore".

My eyes widen at how lifeless he looked.He walks out the restaurant as we all of stand there shocked.

"Someone needs to go after him!"Jasmien yells.

She goes to walk before Naomi pulls her back."He needs to be alone right now.I can see it in his eyes.Just let him be,Jas.We can talk to him tomorrow when he's cooled down".

Jaiden nods in agreement as Jasmine glares at me."Why didn't you tell him?!?".

i narrow my eyes and say"I know you aren't talking of being honest.Why don't you tell Naomi that you can't go to Christmas with her".

Jasmine's eyes widen as Naomi jets her head to her."What?".

Jaiden clenches her teeth and says "Mia I get that you are emotional right now but don't this won't help"."And how you don't want to move to Poland with Clay?".

Clay eyes gdarken as she looks at Jaiden."what?"."All of you lie just like I do!So don't look at me like I'm someone who makes mistakes".

They all frown as I stand up."I need to go talk to him"."Didn't you hear what Naomi said?!".

I look over my shoulder and say "This is different.This is between me and Him".

I walk out the restaurant and take the bus back to the lodge.I unlock my door and to see banks stuff was already gone.I frown and sit down in the bed.

What have I done.
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The next morning.
"I'm sorry".

They all sigh and Jaiden nods."I get it you were all emotional and it hit us all too.You should've seen the yelling we did after you left".

Olivia nods her head and says "Where is banks?".

Vaughn walks over and says "He took the first bus back to the airport according to Mum.He came to her room crying and saying how he wanted to leave so she booked him the first flirt back to London".

"Fucking hell.I wanted to talk to that little shit"Zoe hisses.

Olivia puts her hand on my shoulder and says "How are you feeling"."Like shit.Absolute shit".

"hey you and Banks will work out.Trust me when I say that you two will be all round each other.Whether that be a year or months from now.You two will figure it out.Trust me".

They all nod in agreement and I hold my head down."I've never loved anyone more than I love him.He wants me to move on but there is no moving on from him.He's my first and my last".

"We know.Im hoping we can find his ass when we get back from this trip.Then again it doesn't feel the same with Banks not being here".

"I miss his stupid comments just to get a ride out of him"Vaughn says sighing.

"And I miss his annoying love for drama"Zoe responds."And I miss his dramatic ass eye roll"Clay says sadly.

We all look at her and she shrugs."What?I want to do an eye roll like him.i can just feel the annoyance rolling off it.He has to teach me how he does it one day".

We all stand there in silence as Naomi clears her throat."He does do a really good eye roll".Clay lights up and says "See!Nao gets it!".

"Seriously?"Jasmine says her.Naomi hold her hands up defensively and says "What!?She wasn't lying!You guys won't say it but I definitely will.Lets just try to enjoy this trip.I know it isn't the same without Banks here".

We nod in agreement and Vaughn stands up."Can we try skiing again?I busted my ass the last time and I would like to try it again".

"Fucking hell.Cant you just realize that Banks is the athletic one?"Jaiden says.

"No!I can do things too you know"."Yea get a girl pregnant"Zoe whispers.

Vaughn glares at her as I shake my head.