Paradigm {Complete}

{Concerned}

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Toni's POV: The kids were off at school and since this morning Kenji had been crying because the kids were so loud getting ready ur scared kenji and he hasn't stopped crying since.
I laid across my bed sinking my face into the comforter, Kenny was pacing around the room with Kenji.
He's now 2 weeks old but we couldn't bare having another newborn.

"Ken, I forgot how exhausting this can be. I mean, it's been years since we did this with Kensley.
But Kenji cries way now"

"I know, Toni. I didn't think it would be this hard again. Kenji's crying all night. I couldn't even put him down to use the bathroom. It's like we're back to square one again"

I nodded my head in agreement.

"Yeah, and it's not just the physical exhaustion. It's the emotional toll too. I feel like I'm failing sometimes. Like, I should be able to handle this better.
I have 5 kids for god same, I should be pro.
And to add sprinkles to it I took care of 3 babies at once"

Kenny sat down next to me, putting an arm around me with Kenji in the other arm.

"You're not failing, Toni. We're doing the best we can. And it's okay to feel overwhelmed. It's normal."

I leaned on Ken's shoulder and sighed.

"I know, but it's hard not to worry honey.
I keep thinking about how we managed all of the kids and how different it feels now with Kenji. And with everything else going on..."

"We'll get through this, just like we did before. We just need to take it one day at a time. Kenji will grow, and things will get easier."

I faintly smiled

"I hope so. I just want to be the best mom I can be for him, and for the other kids too. They need us to be strong."

He kissed my forehead....

"We've got this, Toni. We've got each other, and that's what matters most."

Kenji's crying starts to subside. Toni and Ken share a moment of quiet relief, holding each other close.