Love, Drugs and Destruction

11. You made me hate you

Rafe found me there. "Baby, it's okay." He says, rubbing my back, and I shake my head, standing up. "I need to go," I say walking to my house. "Where are you going?" He asks, and I stop looking at him. "I need to go tell JJ before Sarah does," I say, and he frowns. "I will see you later at the party, okay," I say, and he nods, walking to me and kissing me. "It will all be okay." He says and I nod, walking to my house.

I pulled a dress over my head and grabbed my keys. I drove to the cut my heart in my throat. I know I am going to lose all of them. And losing JJ is the worst. I stopped in front of John B's house and took a deep breath; I got out and walked to where I could hear them all talk. Sarah was the first one to see me, and she looked disgusted.

"Hi, Lia," JJ said, smiling and I gave him a small smile. "J can we talk real quick?" I ask, and he nods, frowning. We walked to the dock, and I sighed, looking at the water. "What's wrong, Lia?" He asks, turning me to look at him. I was already crying. "I have to tell you something, and I know you are going to hate me," I say, wiping my tears, and he smiles. "Nothing you say can make me hate you, Lia." He says, and I nod.

"This will," I say turning back to the water. My hands were shaking, and my heart was beating fast. "Just tell me, you are scaring me," JJ says, standing next to me, taking my shaking hand in his. I took a deep breath not looking at him. "Me and Rafe are going out," I say, and JJ pulls his hands away from mine immediately; I finally look at him, and the look he gives me is pure disgust. "What?" He asks, and I nod. "I fell in love with him, J," I say my voice breaking.

"He is a fucking cokehead, Lia; how can you love someone like that?" He shouts, lighting a joint. I started crying. "He's different with me," I say, and he laughs. "He will never change. Don't see yourself as special." He says, and I just look down. "We cannot be friends if you are fucking that piece of shit." He spits angrily, and I look at him. "So you are willing to throw away our friendship because I fell in love with your enemy?" I ask, wiping my cheeks; why can't I stop crying?

"Yes, it all makes sense now, him beating me up, you disappearing at the party, and you not hanging out with us anymore. He is already keeping you from us. That is what he does; Lia, can't you see that." He shouts, and I shake my head. "It's not true," I say and he nods. "Well, I want you to choose." He says, and I look up at him, shocked. "What?" I ask, frowning, and he looks at me.

"You have to choose Lia, me or him, because I will not be your friend while you are with him." He says, and I shake my head. "I can't do that," I say, and he nods. "Fine, but do not come running to me when he destroys you, Lia because he will; he destroys everything in his path!" He says, walking away. "J, please don't walk away," I say, crying again, and he stops looking at me over his shoulder. "You were right. I hate you, Lia; this made me hate YOU!" He shouts, storming off.

I stood there crying, and after a while, I walked back to my car. The others just looking at me. I drove back trying to control my crying. I debated if I should just go home or go to the party; I phoned Rafe. "Hey baby you okay?" "Yeah, where are you are you at the party?" "Yes, I'm waiting for you." He says, and I smile. I told him I would be there soon, and I hung up. I guess it's just me and Rafe now.

I stopped in front of the house where the party was being held, and I looked in the mirror, my eyes blood-red from crying. I shrug getting out of the car. I walked in and went to get myself a drink first. I see Topper taking shots and I smile. "Hey, Top, where is Rafe?" I ask, also taking a shot, and he smiles. "He's upstairs," he says, and I thank him, grabbing a bottle of tequila and walking up the stairs.

I see Rafe sitting with Kelch, and I roll my eyes at the amount of girls around them. I walked closer to them and walked up to Rafe. He smiled when he saw me, and I leaned in to kiss him; I did that to claim him to show everyone he was mine. "Hi baby," he says, pulling me onto his lap, and I smile, deepening the kiss; I open my mouth, and our tongues do their little dance.

I pull away, biting his lip, and he smiles. "Wow, that was fucking hot," Kelch says, and I flip him off, grabbing the bottle of tequila again. I see the girls look angry and the one that was sitting next to Rafe stood up and left. "So how did it go?" He asks, and I shrug. Taking a glass that was on the table and pouring my drink into it. "Well let's just say they all hate me," I say

He pulls me closer, kissing my neck. "I am so sorry." He says, and I smile. "It's fine; at least I have you, and for tonight, I just want to forget it all," I say, and he nods, kissing my shoulder. I sat in Rafe's lap the whole time, and I listened to them chatting. Rafe moved me to sit next to him, and he took out the coke; I rolled my eyes, finishing my glass, already feeling drunk.

I watched Rafe snort the line and then Kelch. He made a line for me, and without thinking, I took it. Fuck I should stop doing it what if I also get addicted. I was high and drunk and my eyes just wanted to close. I stand up to stop myself from sleeping. "Where are you going?" Rafe asks, taking my hand. "To dance, you guys are too boring," I say, and he laughs.

I walked to the dance floor and saw some people I knew and started dancing with them. I finally felt more energized, and I finally was enjoying myself. I don't know how many songs I was dancing to when I felt a pair of hands on my hips. I turned around and saw some random guy, and I tried pushing him off. "Come on, pretty girl,  let's have fun." He says close to my ear, and I push his hands off again.

I was struggling with this guy that felt like he had 8 arms when I heard. "I give you 5 seconds to remove your hands from my girl before I rip them off." I was so happy to see Rafe, and the guy backed off immediately. "Sorry, Cameron did not realize she was yours." He says, putting his hands up in defense, and Rafe nods. "Now, you know, so leave." He says, and the guy moves away immediately.

"You okay?" He asks me, touching my face, and I nod. "Can we please leave?" I ask, suddenly feeling very tired; it was a long emotional day. He nods, taking my hand, and we walk out of the house. "We will come back for your car tomorrow." He says, walking to his truck, and I just nod, getting in; I just want to go to sleep and forget this day.