Love, Drugs and Destruction

26. I did not mean that

I walk to Zac's car, where I left my bag, and realize it's locked. "Fuck." I groan leaning on the car. Why did I let Rafe get under my skin? "Hey, you okay?" Zac asks, and I look up. "Yeah, I just need my bag," I say, and he frowns. "Why?" He asks, crossing his arms. I roll my eyes at him. "Zac, you're not my boyfriend or my dad; please just open the car," I say, and he opens the car, still looking at me. I took out the bag with pills turning to him. "Want one?" I ask, showing him, and he shakes his head.

I nod, swallowing the pill and closing the door; he locks it again, looking at me worried. "Stop looking at me like that," I say leaning against the car. He walks to me, wrapping his arms around my waist. "Rafe was wrong you know." He says, and I put my hands on his chest. "About what?" "About you, there is no way that Pogue is better than you in bed." He says with a smile, and I laugh. He pulls my face to him, and he kisses me.

"Now come, let's go have fun." He says pulling me back to the country club, this time not leaving my hand. We walked to the bar and ordered more shots; we walked with our drinks to a table Michael and Lucy were sitting at. "You okay?" Lucy asks, and I smile; I can already feel the pill working. We just chatted and had a good time. "I am going to the bathroom real quick, "I told Zac, we were going to leave and have a pool party at his house.

I walk to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. I can see that I am high. I wash my hands and walk out bumping into someone. "Fuck sorry," I say, and the person steadies me with their hands on my hips. I look up into Rafe's beautiful blue eyes. I step back, and he lets go of me; I move to walk past him, and he steps in front of me. "Are you high Lia?" He asks, and I frown, crossing my arms. 

"Why do you care?" I spat angrily again, and he nods, rubbing his chin. "I am sorry about earlier, I did not mean what I said." He says, and I nod. "Okay, I have to go," I say, pushing past him. I cannot stand to be that close to him. It's messing with my head. Zac was talking to some guy in his car, and he smiled when he saw me. "Ready to go?" He asks, and I nod, getting in the car.

We stopped to get more drinks and then drove to his house. I was standing in the kitchen watching him put everything in a cooler. "Can I ask you something?" I ask, and he looks up and nods. "Why don't you have a girlfriend?" I ask, and he frowns, straightening up. "I have you." He says with a smile, and I shake my head. "You know we can never be more than what we are right?" I ask, crossing my arms, and he nods.

"I know, and for now, it works for me; if I ever feel the need to get a girlfriend, I will let you know, okay." He says and I nod. Just then, there was a knock, and he kissed me on my head and walked to get the door. "Fuck dude nice house." A guy I did not know said, and they walked in, I greeted everyone, and soon the house was filled with people. I sat on one of the pool chairs enjoying the sun.

"Why are they here?" I hear one of the girls ask and I look over my sunglasses at Rafe and Sofia. I roll my eyes, putting back the sunglasses; I cannot help but look at Rafe; he has become even more sexy, if that is possible. " Hey want something to drink?" Zac asks, touching my leg, and I smile. "Yes please." He walked to get us a beer, and then he came to sit with me.

"Did you invite them?" I ask, playing with the rings on his hand while he holds my thigh. "No, but it's fine. Just ignore them." He says, and I nod, sipping my beer. "Come lets go play beer pong." He says, pulling me up, and we walk to a table. We were kicking ass and laughing a lot; I was finally having fun. "Can we play against you?" Sofia asks, and I look at Zac.

"Sure, it will be fun kicking your ass," I say, and she laughs, gesturing for Rafe to come closer. We started the game and we were head on head. "So Lia is it?"Sofia asks, and I nod. "You are Rafe's ex, correct?" I nod wondering where she is going with this. "Why did you break up?" She asks, and I stop throwing the ball and look from her to Rafe. "Ask your boyfriend," I say, and the ball lands in the cup.

"Leave it Sofia." I hear Rafe say, "No, please tell me; he doesn't want to think about it. He doesn't like talking about you." She says, and I look at her to see if she is saying it to be bitchy, but she is not; she looks interested. Zac threw the ball and we won. "I am going to get something," I tell Zac, ignoring Rafe and Sofia, and I walk into the room where my bag is, with my pills.

"What did you just take." I spun around seeing Rafe leaning against the door. "Nothing; please leave me alone." I half beg. He shakes his head, moves into the room, and closes the door. "So are you and Zac seeing each other?" He asks, crossing his arms and looking around the room. "Not that it's any of your business, but we are not dating, just fucking." I say, and I can see a flash of anger in his eyes.

"What happened to you? Where is the soft Lia I love so much?" He asks, and my breath hitch. "She is long gone; you took her with you when you left," I say, sitting on the bed. He nods biting his lip. He walks to me and bends down, sitting in front of me. "Lia, I never meant for any of those things to happen, your breaking up with me was the best thing that could happen to me. I realized I needed to change, and I want to thank you for your part in it." He says, and I glare at him.

Is he fucking kidding me? "Well, good for you, Rafe," I say, pushing him away from me, and I stand up. He stood up, looking at me, and I ran my hands through my hair. "I am so fucking happy you are happy, it's just a shame that you ruined me in the process; I still remember the first time we fucked. You warned me, you told me, and I did not believe you, but guess what, Rafe, you did; you fucking ruined me," I say, tears streaming down my face.

"Lia," he says, stepping closer, and I shake my head, moving back. "No, it's fine. I am fine; I just never want to see you again; why did you come back? It was not to be with me, so why are you here, Rafe." I say, wiping my tears with the back of my hand. "I am taking over my dad's business here." He says and I nod. "Lia, I am sorry, okay? I did not mean for it to turn out the way it did. But I am in a good place and I am better than I have ever been." He says, and I laugh.

"God you are such a fucking cunt." I say, and he looks at me, shocked. "Your life is so wonderful and good for you, and where am I? Still here having a broken heart over a guy I loved so much, but he doesn't give a shit about me. I am taking pills just to feel something, anything that is what you did to me. YOU RAFE.!"I shout, and a sob escapes my mouth.

He steps closer to me, and I shake my head. "Please just fucking leave," I say, and he nods, walking to the door. "O and Rafe take your fucking Pogue girlfriend with you," I say, and he leaves the room; I sink on the floor, pulling my legs up, and I just sob.

Please tell me what we think, is Rafe going to take Lia back and help her?