Love, Drugs and Destruction

33. I am done with all of you

I had a good day with my mom. I had missed our time together, and I almost told her everything, but I knew it would break her heart and she would be so disappointed. We were sitting in a nice cafe having lunch; I had already found a very nice dress, it was Emerald green with thin straps and a low back.

"Lia, I have to ask this because I care." My mom says after we order, and I nod. "I know you are a big girl, and you are having sex, but please tell me you are at least safe?" She asks, and I blush. "I am, Mom. Don't worry," I tell her, and I can see the relief in her eyes. Our food came, and we just chatted and laughed. "I missed this," I tell my mom and she nods. "Me too, honey; we should do it more often." She says, and I smile.

When I got the message from JJ, I just had a feeling something was up, but then again, it's JJ he will not betray me. When we were done, we went shoe shopping, and I got nice silver heals that would compliment my dress nicely. We got home that evening, and I felt so good; I really had a good day. We walk in and I frown. "Do you smell that mom?" I ask, and she smiles, also confused. We walked to the kitchen to see my dad with an apron taking something out of the oven.

"Dad, are you cooking?" I ask in disbelief because my dad never cooks; I did not even know he could cook. "My two girls are home, and yes, don't look so surprised I did cook." My dad says, giving my mom a kiss; I giggle. "Go sit. Dinner is ready, " my dad says, ushering us out to the dining room. I was surprised at how good the food was. "Wow, Dad, I never thought your food would taste this good." I tease taking another bite of my chicken.

"I am just glad to see you are eating." My dad says, and I nod. After dinner, my mom and I cleaned the kitchen, and then I said good night, ready to lay in bed and watch Vampire Diaries. I lay in bed watching my show and feeling good; I had a good day; I did not even have to take a pill today to feel better. I finally fell asleep feeling better than I had in a long time.

I woke up the next morning for the first time in a long time. I did not have a headache, I went to shower, and I then got dressed, not bothering with makeup, and I put my hair in a high ponytail. I grabbed my bag and went downstairs; my parents already left. I got my keys and drove to the cut. When I got there, I saw Rafe's truck, and I frowned. Why is he here? I don't want to see him.

I decided to just go for JJ and maybe he just came to see Sarah. I grab my phone walking to the Chateau. I see them all sitting on the porch, Rafe leaning against the railing. Rafe was the first one to look at me and I saw something in his eyes I could not place. "Hey guys." I greeted and I got half hellos. I walk to JJ, giving him a kiss on the cheek like I always do; he could not look me in the eyes.

"So what's going on?" I ask sitting on the chair next to Kie. They all look at each other and then me. "Okay, what you are scaring me, and why is Rafe here?" I say again, and JJ stands up, lighting a cigarette. Rafe finally looked at me. "I told them, Lia." He says, and I frown. "Told them what?" I ask crossing my arms. "About your addiction." He said, and it felt like my world came tumbling down, I felt my heart beating fast, and I had to take a breath or I would die.

JJ came, and he kneeled in front of me, taking my hands; the blood had left my face, and I was pale. "Why did you not tell me cupcake." He says, and I pull my hands from him, looking anywhere but at him. "He's lying." I finally spoke. "You know I'm not Lia." He says, and I lose it. I stand up running my hands through my hair. "What makes you think you have any right to talk about me or my life!" I shout at him and he looks down.

"Lia, we want to help you." Sarah finally spoke, and my head snapped to her; I started laughing, and she frowned. "HELP! HELP, you want to help me. Do you know how you can help me, huh?" I shout, and she looks at the others. They were all staring at me with shock in their eyes. "You can help me by staying the fuck away from me and taking your asshole brother with you," I say, taking deep breaths to calm myself, fuck, I should have taken a pill.

"Lia." JJ started, but I cut him off. "No, J, I expected it from everyone else but not you." I snap and he looks down. "Amelia, we are trying to help you; addiction is a bad thing," Pope says, and I nod. "I know and who do you think made me like this? I did not even use drugs before I started dating HIM!" I shout, pointing at Rafe, and he shakes his head, looking down.

"Lia, please, we can go with you to talk to your parents and get you the help you need," Kie says, and I shake my head. "I do not have a problem; I can leave it anytime I want. I am not Rafe!" I shout and she looks at her hands. "Lia let me help you," Rafe says, stepping closer, and I step back. "I swear to god, if you touch me, I will kill you," I say, tears streaming down my face.

"Lia, we all love you, and we just want you to get help; we have noticed that you are different, and we just want the old Lia back." John B that was quiet the whole time, spoke up, and I nodded. "The old Lia died a long time ago, and you know why John B, its because the old Lia was a pussy that was so in love with a guy that she was willing to give up everything for him, EVERYTHING, and look where that got me!" I sob wiping my eyes with the back of my hand.

"Lia, you need to breathe cupcake," JJ says, and I glare at him. "If I am such a burden to all of you, I will make it easy, stay out of my life, and stay out of my FUCKING BUSINESS! I shout walking to the door. "Don't go," Rafe says, grabbing my arm, and I spin around, hitting him with all I have. He turns his head, his cheek red. "GET OFF ME AND GO FUCK YOUR DIRTY POGUE GIRLFRIEND," I shout pushing him away from me.

I put my hand on the door handle and turn around glaring at all of them. "From now on, you are all dead to me; you are nothing but fucking pogues to me now. And you." I say turning to Rafe. "You are nothing but a prick that should have died; my life would have been so much better if I had never met you," I say, storming out the door and to my car.

I drove off, seeing JJ watching me. Tears were streaming down my face, and my vision was blurry; I pulled off next to the road, digging in my bag. "Fuck." I shout, seeing I only have one pill left, taking it. I lay my head against the steering wheel. I wiped my tears and took a deep breath. I started my car again and drove to Barry's; he needed to sell it to me.

Okay, so what do we think? Will Lia be able to get safe, or is she too far gone?