Love, Drugs and Destruction

18. I love you.

We spent the rest of the day just in my bed, we laughed and talked a lot. I was lying in Rafe's arms after fucking for the 4th time today and had a lot of orgasms. He was rubbing my back and I felt happy. My stomach started growling, and I giggled. "Are you hungry baby?" He asks, looking at me, and I smile. "Yes, we haven't eaten much today," I say, sitting up, and he smiles.

"I am going to go make us something," grabbing his shirt and pulling it over my head. I don't wait for him to answer, and I walk out to the kitchen. I took out some ingredients to make sandwiches when I saw him leaning with his arms on the counter, looking at me. I smiled and started making sandwiches.

"You look so damn sexy in my shirt," he says, and I blush. "And you look so damn sexy without it, " I say, and he laughs. "Today was nice," I say and he grins. "Yes, it was." I blush realizing he has a double meaning. I gave him his sandwich and sat next to him on the barstool.

"I don't get you." I look at him, confused. "Why?" I ask, taking a bite of my sandwich. "You are so fucking stunning, and I have had my mouth on every part of your body, and god, not to even talk about the things you can do with your mouth, but when I compliment you, you blush." He says, and I giggle.

"I am not used to people complimenting my looks," I say standing up to get us a soda. "But you have had boyfriends before?" He asks, and I nod. "Have they never told you that you are beautiful?" I nod. "They have, but hearing it from you is different," I say, and he smiles.

He leans in, kissing my cheek. "I will tell you every day till you believe it." He says, and I just smile. We finished eating and went back to my room; Rafe chose the movie, tired of Vampire Diaries. I lay down feeling my eyes close. "Don't sleep." He says, playing with my hair, and I yawn.

"I'm not," I say, feeling my eyes close again, and before the movie was even halfway, I fell asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling next to me. I sit up seeing the bed is empty. I frown. Where is Rafe? I see my bathroom light on and I walk to the bathroom.

Pushing the door that was already a little open more, I gasped, Rafe was bent over the bathroom sink, taking a line. He looks at me, wiping his nose, and I frown, crossing my arms. "Rafe, it's 4 in the morning; why are you using drugs right now?" I ask, and he smiles, walking to me. His eyes were blood red, and I could see it was not his first line.

"I need it, baby; it makes me feel good." He says, and I bite my lip. He pulled me closer by my waist, and then he kissed me. I can taste the coke on his tongue and I pull away. "You will tell me if I have to worry?" I ask and he nods, licking and sucking my neck. "Do you want some?" He asks, and I shake my head.

I walked back to bed, and I got in. I lay down watching Rafe pacing in front of the bed, "lay down," I tell him, and he smiles, coming to lay between my legs, his head on my stomach. "Fuck, I am so lucky to have you." He says, and I smile. I play with his hair, and he moans. "That feels good." He says, holding me tighter around my waist.

He kisses my stomach, and I smile, closing my eyes. "Amelia." "Hmm?" I ask half asleep. "I love you." He whispers, and my eyes snap open, looking down at him. "What?" I ask thinking I heard him wrong. He does not answer, and soon I can hear him snoring.

I could not sleep after that. Did I hear him right, or did I make a mistake? Was it the drugs talking? I lay there till the sun came out just debating if I should ask him about it when he wakes up or just leave it. I decided to leave it and see if he would say it again. I crawl out from under Rafe making sure he is still asleep.

I went to the kitchen to get coffee and to start breakfast. I took out everything I would need for pancakes, and I started making the mix. I started making the pancakes and sipping my coffee; I could not stop thinking about what Rafe had said.

"Morning baby," Rafe says behind me suddenly, and I jump a little. I turn around and smile at him. "Morning, did you sleep well?" I ask, turning back to the pancakes and flipping them. "Yeah, did I sleep on you the whole night?" He asks, and I smile.

"Yes, you did," I say, putting the batch of pancakes in front of him. I took out blueberries and syrup before sitting next to him. He took some pancakes and started eating. "Fuck, this is great pancakes." He says, taking another bite. "So about last night," I say, and he looks at me confused.

"Okay, listen, I am sorry that you had to walk in on me taking some coke. I am a little addicted to it, but it's nothing to worry about, okay." He says when he sees my face, and I nod. Not what I wanted to talk about, but okay. I nod eating my pancakes again.

"What's wrong?" He asks, taking my hand, and I shake my head. "Nothing, it's just don't you remember anything from last night?" I ask, and he looks confused. "I remember everything." I look at him, surprised. "What exactly do you remember?" I ask, and he laughs.

"I remember you coming in while I was using the drugs, and then I fell asleep on you; why is there something else?" He asks frowning a little. "No, that is what happens," I say finishing my pancakes and walking to put the dishes in the dishwasher. He stood up, giving me the plate. "So, what do you want to do today?" He asks, leaning against the counter.

"I don't know, maybe we can go to the beach; I would love to surf," I say, and he grins, nodding. "Okay, I am going to run over and grab some clothes; wait for me, and then we'll shower together." He says, wrapping his arms around my waist. He kisses my shoulder, and I nod. "Hurry up then." I giggle, kissing him, and he walks out the door.

I went back to my room and made my bed; I could not stop thinking about what Rafe said: did he not remember, or was he just pretending? Well, I would have said it back, but I do not want to sound desperate and ask him about it. I walked to my closet and grabbed clothes.

I was busy brushing my teeth when Rafe came in. I smile at him, and he also brushes his teeth. I opened the shower and stepped in. I stood under the water letting the hot stream run over my body. My muscles were sore, and the water was helping. I watched Rafe strip, and I could not help but admire him. God, he was so sexy.

"You're staring, baby." He says, wrapping his hands around my waist, and I smile. "I can't help it; you are fucking hot," I say, and he laughs. Fuck that laugh; I don't hear it often, but when I do, my knees go numb. "Not as hot as you." He says, finally kissing me.

He deepens the kiss and I wrap my arms around his neck. "Rafe," I beg, and I can feel that I am already wet for him. Fuck I am insatiable if it comes to him. "Hmm, what do you need baby." He says, nibbling my neck, and I moan. "Fuck me," I say, and he smiles, picking me up and pushing me against the wall.

He thrust into me and I moan, my nails digging into his shoulders to support myself. "Fuck you have the best pussy." He groans into my neck. He leans down, taking one nipple in his mouth, and I throw my head back. "I'm close." I moan, and he picks up his pace. He leans his forehead against mine. "Cum with me baby." He groans, and I exploded around him; he cum in me with a loud groan.

We were both breathing loudly, and he leaned in, kissing me; he took my breath away with his kiss, and I knew this was different; this was making love even in the shower. Just like that, I have fallen even more for this boy who has so many problems.

I would like to know what you think. As you can see, the story does not follow the original show, but I am going to bring in some of the scenes.