Love, Drugs and Destruction

40. I am finally clean

After another week from hell, I was finally feeling like myself again. My appetite is back, and I haven't vomited when I eat. I was sitting on the balcony waiting for Rafe to come home. We were going to a party on the beach tonight, and I was nervous. It will be the first time since I decided to leave the drugs that I will be leaving the house. My mom let me know they are coming back next week.

I was glad that things worked out this way; I don't know if I would have been able to hide this from them. I sat scrolling through my phone, thinking about the pogues and JJ. Since that day we had a fight we haven't had contact again. They tried hard to contact me but I ignored them. Rafe has been so wonderful to me and I was so happy to have him. Without him, I would not have made it.

It was also almost 3 weeks the last time we had sex, and I know I was unwell, but fuck, I need to be close to him like that. I sigh standing up to look at the water. After the fight about Sofia, Rafe showed me all the messages, even the one where he told her to move on from him. I trusted him, but there will always be a part of me that will wonder if I can trust him fully.

"Hey, baby," Rafe says, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me to him; I smile and turn in his arms, wrapping my arms around his neck. "Hey," I say, kissing him. "How are you feeling?" He asks after we pull away, and I smile; he is always so concerned. "I feel good, like my old self again." He nods kissing my head. "Have you eaten?" He asks, and I nod, kissing his neck. He smelled so fucking good, and not just did my appetite come back, so did my hormones.

"I have, but I am not full," I say, and he pulls away, looking concerned. "Let's go get something to eat then." He says, and I giggle, grabbing his arm; he looks at me, confused. "I am not hungry for food, Rafe," I say, and I can see the realization in his eyes. He gave me a sexy grin pulling me closer by my waist again. "Is that so, and what do you want, princess?" He asks, making me blush.

"I want you, it's been too long," I say, and he smiles, leaning in, kissing and sucking my neck; I give a small moan; I can't help it. "You have me baby, all of me." I smile, closing my eyes and enjoying the attack he gave my neck. "I know, but I want you naked on top of me fucking the life out of me," I say, and he groans. He picks me up, and my legs wrap around him immediately. He walks with me in his arms to his bed.

He lay me down and kissed me; he wrapped his hand around my throat, giving it a squeeze, and I gasped, giving him access to my mouth; he slipped his tongue in, and I moaned into the kiss. I tucked at his shirt, and he sat up, pulling it over his head. I also removed the shirt I was wearing, no bra on, and Rafe groaned. "Fuck baby," he groans, taking a nipple in his mouth and sucking it. He made sure to give both my breasts attention and then he kissed down until he was playing with my shorts.

He stops, and I look down at him. "Are you sure?" He asks, and I smile, biting my lip. "Yes, now please, I want you." I half moan, and that is all he needs; he pulls my shorts down, taking my thong with them. He started licking and sucking my thighs, and I moaned; finally, his mouth was on me, sucking my clit, and I threw my head back. "Fuck baby you are so wet," Rafe says, inserting a finger in me, and I moan, grabbing his hair.

I can feel my orgasm building up, and I know Rafe can feel it as well; he curls his fingers up, sucking and licking my clit. "Fuck, don't stop. I am so close." I moan, and Rafe groans against my clit, sending vibrations thru me. Finally, I cum with a loud moan. Rafe sat up, watching me with a smile, licking his finger. I sat up smiling, and I started unbuttoning his pants. He smiled, helping me push off his pants, and he sprang free in front of me.

I lick my lips, looking up at him. I lean forward, taking him in my mouth, and he gasps. "Fuck I missed your mouth." He groan, grabbing my hair in his fist and pushing deeper into my throat. He started thrusting his hips, hitting the back of my throat, and I grabbed onto his thighs for support. "Just like that baby, you take me so well." He groans. I take him deeper, and he throws his head back, still thrusting in my mouth. Just when I thought he was going to cum, he pulled out.

Wiping my mouth, I look at him, and he rubs my bottom lip with his thumb. "I want to cum in your pussy, baby, not your mouth." He says, pushing me back and getting on top of me. He smiles down at me, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. "You did so well these two weeks, baby; now let me treat you well." He says, pushing in me, and I suck in a breath. It has been so long, and he stopped for me to get used to him. I pushed my hips up, and he started moving; he did not go fast and hard. He took it slow, groaning while kissing and sucking my neck.

I moan, grabbing his ass and pushing him to go deeper, "Faster, please." I beg, and he smiles, kissing me again. Our tongues fight for dominance, and I moan as he goes faster and deeper, his one hand holding my hip and the other around my throat. "Fuck baby, you need to cum for me okay I can hold it any longer." He groan biting my bottom lip and I groan. My orgasm was already building up, Rafe hitting my sweet spot every time.

"Fuck" I moan as the orgasm hits my body, everything shaking, and Rafe relies on a loud groan after me. He fell on top of me, both of us out of breath and coming down from our high. I rub his back, and he looks up, smiling. "I love you, Lia." He says, pecking my lips, and I smile up, pulling him closer by the back of his neck. "I love you, Rafe," I say deepening the kiss. He rolls off me, turning to me. "Come, let's go shower." He says, pulling me up, and we walk together to shower.

We were getting dressed to go to the party; I was nervous and scared. I know there are going to be drugs. I was sitting in front of the mirror doing light makeup. "You okay?" Rafe asks, kneeling next to me, and I shake my head. " I'm nervous," I say, and he nods, rubbing my cheek. "I will be with you the whole time, don't worry." He says, giving me a peck on my lips and standing up.

I stood up grabbing my phone. "I really need to go home sometime you know," I say as we walk to his truck, and he stops walking, turning to me. "Why?" He asks, frowning. "My parents are coming back next week, Rafe; I cannot stay with you permanently; I am clean now. So you don't have to worry." I say, and he nods, biting his lip. "I know." He say opening the door for me and I get in.

We drove in silence to the beach. "I want you to move in with me." Rafe suddenly say and I look at him shock. "Rafe." I start, but he stops me. "No, I told you, Lia, I am going to marry you. You are 18, and you are done with school, so why not move in with me." He asks, and I sigh. "I still have collage Rafe." I say and he nods. "I know, but why not stay with me when you are here." He asks, and I smile. "Okay, but we have to talk to my parents first," I say, and they smile taking my hand and kissing the back. "Okay." He said as we stopped at the beach; he was so excited I could not help but smile as well.

One more chapter guys and then the story is done. Hope you enjoyed it.