Love, Drugs and Destruction

8. You have been a bad girl.

I sat on the beach watching the others surf. "Lia, are you going to surf?" Kie asks, sitting next to me, and  I shake my head, sipping the beer JJ gave me. "No, not in the mood," I say and she nods. "I hear there is a beach party tonight?" She says, and I look at her frowning. "Are you guys going?" I ask, and she smiles, looking at me.

"We are all going, Lia," she says, bumping my shoulder, and I smile. Fuck I hope Rafe doesn't want to see me tonight. "Now come we cannot let them have all the fun." She says, pulling me up by my hands, and I laugh, removing my shirt. We ran to the water and just surfed the whole time; this is what summer is supposed to be about, I thought, walking out to my towel.

I sat down downing the last of my beer as the rest also came out. "That wave was fucking insane," JJ says, wiping his face, and I giggle. "Lia, what happened to your arm?" Pope asks next to me and I start panicking. "Nothing," I say, pulling my shirt back on, and JJ walks closer to me. "Let me see your arm, Lia," JJ says, and I shake my head.

He walked to me, pulled up my sleeve, and looked at my arm. " Who the fuck did that?" He asks angrily, and I look down, not being able to look him in the eye. "No one I bumped myself," I say, pulling my arm away from him, not missing the look they all give each other. "That looks a lot like finger marks, Lia," Pope says again, and I roll my eyes, standing up.

"It's nothing; just let it go, "I say looking at them. "Lia, you can tell me what happened," JJ says, and I shake my head. "I did tell you now let it go," I say running my hands through my hair. "Was it Rafe?" He asks, and I look up at him in shock. How does he know, and what does he know?

"Why would it be Rafe?" Sarah asked before I could say anything. I look at JJ and then at the rest. "Yes JJ, why would it be Rafe?" I ask, crossing my arms, and he rubs his face. "I don't know, okay? Just last night was weird, and the way he is looking at you is just weird." He says, and I nod. "Well, it was not him, and I did bump myself; I was drunk and high, okay," I say, looking at all of them. They all just nod, not looking convinced.

We drove to the beach party and I walked to the drinks table. I took a few shots and then grabbed a beer. "I'm sorry for earlier," JJ says, and I nod. "It's okay, J, and I promise you I was just clumsy," I say, leaning down and kissing him on his cheek. He pulled me onto his lap, hugging me, and my heart stopped when I felt a pair of blue eyes staring at me.

I watched Rafe, and I could see the anger from where I was; he was sipping his drink, Topper was saying something, and he was just staring at me. "Come dance with us," Sarah says, pulling me from JJ's lap and giggling. I could see she was already drunk. I danced with her and Kie but I could still feel Rafe staring at me.

"I'm going to get a drink," I tell Sarah, needing something to take away my stress; I walk to the table and take the vodka, drinking a big gulp from the bottle. I feel him before I see him and I do not look up mixing my drink. "You have been a bad girl baby." He whispers close to my ear, and I finally look up at him.

"What, cat got your tongue?" He says and I just shake my head. "Come with me." He says, and he walks away from me; I consider walking back to my friends, but I know that will only make it worse. I looked back at the pogues, and they were laughing and not looking at me. I took another big sip from the bottle and then followed where Rafe disappeared.

I see him leaning against his truck, and I take a deep breath. He watched me so intensely that I felt naked. I stood next to him and I watched him throw away the rest of the weed. "What do you want?" I ask not being able to stand the silence between us. He smiled and grabbed me by my neck, pushing me so that my back was to the truck. "I saw you with JJ, so you are a little slut." He said close to my face, and I could smell the whiskey.

"We are friends, Rafe," I say, trying to control my breathing. "I don't go around kissing my friends and letting them sit on my lap." He says, and I finally look up at him. "Let go of me please," I say, and he laughs. "Fine, you will see what kind of asshole I can be." He says, pushing me hard and walking back to the party. I sink to the ground the tears running down my face.

"Lia, are you okay? I look up, seeing Topper and some girl, and I wipe my tears, standing up. "I'm fine," I say, and he nods, saying something to the girl, she looks me up and down, walking back to the beach. "Are you sure? You don't look okay?" He says, and I smile, wiping my tears again. "It's just Rafe; I will be fine, don't worry," I say starting to walk back to the party.

"Lia, I know he is an asshole most of the time, but believe me, he does like you." He says and I stop looking at him over my shoulder. "Doesn't feel like that," I say walking back to the party. I walk back to my friends grabbing the bottle of vodka. "There you are," JJ says, and I smile. "Here I am," I say, drinking from the bottle.

The rest of the evening, I got drunk and just listened to my friends talking. I see Rafe with a girl and I frown. He was all over her and she was enjoying the attention. His eyes met mine, and I looked down, taking the blunt JJ gave me. I looked up again, and my heart broke; Rafe and the girl were busy making out, but he was looking at me.

I felt sick and I stood up so fast that the world was spinning. "You okay?" Sarah asks, and I shake my head, walk to the closest tree, and throw up all the content in my body. "Lia, are you drunk?" JJ asks, holding my hair back, and I nod. "I want to go home," I say, wiping my mouth, and he nods, taking my hand.

I leaned next to the Twinkie, waiting for the others, when I saw Rafe and the girl got into his truck with Topper, Kelce, and more girls. They drive past me and I look down. "Hey princess, want to join the party at my house?" Rafe asks, and I look up, frowning. "Fuck you, Rafe," I say, and I see anger flashing in his eyes. "Come on lets go." The girl next to Rafe says, and he nods, driving off.

I sat in the Twinkie, thinking about what Rafe was doing and why I had given up on him so fast. "Are we dropping you home Lia?" Jonh B asks pulling me from my thoughts. "Yes, please," I say, and he nods. "I will stay with her to make sure she is okay," Sarah says, and I smile, glad to have her. We stopped in front of my house, and I waved at the others walking to my door. I just wanted to go to sleep and forget everything.

Please tell me what you think. Is Rafe going to sleep with the girl?